Need too

…What that is, I don’t know what. But I have at least a little under a year to figure it out.

Do any of you ever have that feeling, that you know you should be doing more with your life? After this past weekend and getting frustrated with nearly every aspect of life these days. I sat there drinking and letting off steam. Thinking, there must be more than this.

There must be more than getting seriously annoyed with people on social media, and their “opinions” and what “they think”. I don’t care what these bumbling buffoons’ think, or their opinions. There MUST be a more constructive way to let off steam. All I have to do now if think of it.

But ideas, I don’t mean like come off social media. I mean, but the frustration into something … I guess … crafty.

Do you know what I mean?

I always seem to write really great blogs when I’m frustrated, even if I have to schedule it for a week later. Make sure the grammar and the writing is not that bad. But in the meantime, maybe there’s other things I can do. The only thing is, what? Writing does help a lot, maybe starting a book about my frustrated thoughts and turn that into some sort of novel?

I follow, on Instagram, this little page called “Plushie Adoptions” and I think that’s a fantastic idea. I was thinking someone turning something like that into something, like helping animal rescues centers. Then my idea expanded, into making little gift baskets for all new animals that come into adoption centers. You know like, a lot basket of goodies. Plushies, treats in it, blankies. All sorts of thing, things you can probably purchase from a op shop. But, because I’m young…ish. I would want to get some sort of money out of it. As horrible as it sounds.

Then my brain starts going, just do it Lauren, for free. But then my needing to eat and pay bills side is all “Well you need to eat and pay bills”.

I have so many ideas, definitely charity-wise. But I just don’t have the money to start funding that sort of thing, and it’s SO frustrating. I guess I could look into it? Maybe even get a small grant from somewhere.

Actually the more I think about it, the more excited it seems…But would I be brave enough?

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Meditative Space

Ever since my birthday, I have been inspired people! Inspired! I feel all renewed.

We have a back room, that I want to turn into my own meditative, escape type room. My partner has his own office, at my own house/my mums house. My bedroom there was my safe space. I don’t make enough money to have my own house. But I need a room to meditate, to cry, to be able to feel like I can write in peace.

My partner doesn’t get it, lol.

Do you have a meditation space, or a space where you can feel creative? I really am feeling like I need something like it. What’s in your space?

A very random blog post

This is going to be a very random post. I left for my Grans on Thursday, last week and I’ve been having to get up by at least 5am for the rest of the week, now I don’t have to do that, my brain has just gone away for it’s own little holiday I think, lol.

Now I’m sitting here, with a cat, continually grabbing at my shoulder for attention, wondering what to post about! My brain just has no inspiration.

Luckily there are a lot of things happening next week regarding literacy and suicide type awareness days. So I will be writing about those days. Not forgetting that is it also Teddy Bear Day next week. Which also just happens to coincide with R U Okay day in Australia, so something definitely needs to be written together for those two. I also have a lot of homework that needs to get by this coming Monday, and I am on track to get it all done. However, that’s also what I’ll be doing for most of today.

She’s a mystery girl

https://anupturnedsoul.wordpress.com/2019/01/09/mystery-blogger-award/

The Mystery Blogger Award was created by Okoto Oke Enigma

I was not nominated for this award, but I thought that An Upturned Souls questions and answers were so beautiful, that I was completely inspired to answer the questions.

An Upturned Soul 5 Questions

#1 – What is the best compliment you could get or have received for one of your creations?

I haven’t honestly created anything yet, everything I am creating is in the middle of it’s creation. I feel like this is the year where all my creations are going to finally come together. I think one of the best compliments you can give someone is just to tell them how their creations moved you, honestly. Did their creation inspire you? Did it move you, what feelings did it make you feel. I don’t mean “It sucked” That is neither constructive or helpful.

#2 – Which creative person has had the most influence on you and your creativity?

I have to say it is my Grandmother (the one I wrote about in my previous post) You know how sometimes you are lucky enough to connect with a person, especially from your own family? Well my Gran is “my person” and she’s probably the biggest cheerleader for all her children and grandchildren. That’s why it’s been upsetting me, I feel like we had to take care of her, instead of her watching over our dog.

#3 – Which work of art, literature, invention, song, film, etc, which has already been created do you wish you could have created?

I think if you read my posts a lot, you will know of my complete love for the world of J.R.R Tolkien. That’s my jive!

#4 – Do you have a creative muse, someone who or something which never fails to get your creativity flowing? Do you want to share your muse or keep them a secret?

My Muse is a “something”. It’s a music something. For some reason whenever I listen to Celtic music, but more specifically Celtic Women…Whenever I hear the music, I want too either jig, if I’m walking, or write, if I’m at home…I even have a video clip for each one of their songs that I really enjoy.

#5 – You find a book and begin to read only to discover that it is your life. You get to the point that you are at now, do you turn the page knowing that you will not be able to change the events to come? (weird-funny question from Mantelligence: 83 Hypothetical Questions)

No! Oh my goodness…As tempted as I would definitely would be, I would never be able too. I don’t want to know. It’s just too much pressure, whether it’s something good or bad. Even if it’s something good, the pressure to wait for it too happen, would be just as unbearable.

My 5 Questions for anyone who would like to answer them:

#1 What is something you have always wanted to started to do? Still have yet to do it.

#2 Like Homer Simpson, he sold his soul for a doughnut. What would you sell yours for?

#3 Would you want to have good magic or dark magic…Why and what responsibilities would come along with it? (Inspired by Doctor Strange)

#4 What is the wisest thing you have heard someone say?

#5 What would make you feel more worthy?

If you want to participate officially here are the rules:

RULES:

1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
2. List the rules.
3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
9. Share a link to your best post(s)

July Goals

This month is very much about getting things that I’ve gotten together and actually start using and creating with them!

• Get a Yoga Schedule – Focus mainly on strengthen my sciatica.
• Make a budget. I don’t know how but somehow even though my anxiety has lessened and I’ve been able to start catching buses again. Somehow I spent more money than when I’d caught taxis? Makes no sense!
• Create some healthy winter recipes.

CREATE!!!

Why I really like Beyonce

Other than the obvious, that she is just WAY cooler than I ever will be,lol

I just love her art and how she expresses herself. I know that she gets a lot of slack for how she sometimes her portray herself…But I love it! You take the 2017 Grammy Awards and how she got a lot of flack because some people were asking “Does she think she’s a God” … Clearly Beyonce doesn’t think she’s a “God” It’s called creativity you dingle berries Do you ask Pablo Picasso “Does he think he’s a cube?”

Picture Source: Respect-Mag.com (Look at the smile)

Too me Beyonce is just a Queen of Creativity, everything she does is creative and not the set standard creativity either. She does things out of the box…Which is why I love Beyonce, I love waiting to see what she’ll do next!

 

Recipe Magic

Sometimes you just find a awesome bunch of recipes that just make you want to try them all in THAT moment! I came accross these amazing recipes through Buzzfeed.:

21 Technicolor Treats That Will Make Your Mouth Water (Article written by:Krista Torres). These just look amazing, I have been trying to experiment this year with more different recipes and trying new thing. My mind is over imploding with all these new recipes, I can’t wait to try them.

There’s a couple I am really looking forward to making:

Homemade galaxy ice-cream (Maybe during summer, it’s Winter here).

D.I.Y Tie-Dye Smores

http://ahelicoptermom.com/easy-watermelon-fudge-recipe

Please let me know if you try any of these!

Blog Block!

I have been really struggling to find, at least, anything interesting to blog about today! So what better way to try unblock myself than to talk about Blog Block!

What do you like to do to unblock yourselves? In the writing sense of course! Or creative block!

I like to listen to music, but when I have a block and I determined to write, I have to listen to a certain type of music. Usually it’ll be something Celtic or “mystical” I love Enya. Taking me to another place, even if it’s just in my mind, can really get my creative juices flowing. Some people think it’s weird that because I love to play games, I don’t just play some computer games to unblock myself? It is weird, I don’t use games to unblock my writers block because when I play games, my brain tends to be thinking differently when I play games. I think playing games is a different kind of relaxation. Sometimes it’s not relaxing to play computer games at all, it can be intense!

One of my favourite performers of all time and she is great when I really need my “mind to get away” (if that makes sense) is Enya (you might all know her best from the Lord of the Rings as the singer of “May it Be”. My very favourite of hers though and one I really love to listen to when I am in a particular bind is “Wild Child”.

 

My sweet Oasis: The Daily Post

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/oasis/

A sanctuary is a place you can escape to, to catch your breath and remember who you are. Write about the place you go to when everything is a bit too much.

This would definitely have to be my bedroom, my place of sanctuary and safety. Especially now with my new t.v. and awesome partner getting me a chromecast, I just need a little fridge in there and I could hide there for days (although staying in a caravan I know that can be just as dangerous!). I love the nights were I just take my computer, put my television on in the background and just read my book, while I have DJuma Cam – Ustream on in the background. It is such bliss! It’s amazing how much creativity happens on those nights too! lol

My River Song Journal

I was completely inspired to write this post after reading this post: http://ceenphotography.com/2015/12/27/finding-myself/

So I strongly believe that every girl needs diary or a journal and what better way for the new year than a River Song Journal after all “You have to have something scandalous to read on long journeys”. I consider myself incredibly lucky that this year for Christmas I was able to score myself a River Song Journal and I am so excited for next year! I can just feel that it’s going to be full of creativity … I wonder what scandalous things will be happening for me next year! What are you excited for next year? What will be your scandalous story be for the year?