So I decided to start a Discord International Book Club. It’s one of the things that I promised to myself. Too get more involved with my friends, but also to see what I can do about reaching out more to the Book community. Books and Friends…How can you lose! What better day to start than on Tolkiens Birthday!
I have so many friend in my country and internationally, so why not try to bring it all together! I have so many friends and family who love books. I thought it’s be a nice idea to have a safe space for us book worms to talk all things books =D I don’t know what I’m expecting of this, but I’m hoping it’ll get a lot of us talking about books. Having something fun to concentrate on.
This is the link if you wish to join…Hope to see you there!
Day 15: Also in Chapter Eleven, I talk about the power of SURRENDER. Share a time when you had nothing left to do but surrender, and how it impacted your life to just let go and let God.
I feel like I’m starting to repeat, but the night I ended up in hospital. I had been wanting to see a Doctor about my anxiety for a long time. I literally had to surrender and finally go.
Day 16: In Chapter Twelve, I share about how my group therapy family became like family to me. Talk about a friend or friends who are like family to you…and how they remind you just how ENOUGH you are when you’ve forgotten.
Despite losing my ex best friends last year (we all called each other “sisters”). There was a time when I refused to call friends, family, ever again. However, as time has gone on I’ve let that go and I started to do it again. There’s only a couple of people that I still do it for. Some people let me down after that whole incident too, that had nothing to do with those people. There was one girl who I’d call my baby sister and she was sick all the time. Myself and a couple of others would stay up all night as she’d go on and on about how bad she’d feel, and we believe her. However, once she got better and they figured out what was wrong, we’ve not heard from her since. Not even a thank you. Since then, the other girl who was even kinder than me has lost her brother and her father in a only a few months. Still not a peep!
However, there are still people out there who have not forgotten me. Which is nice. I get forgotten a lot, as sad at that sounds. Some times it’s really good, then people aren’t looking at me. It’s not about the quantity, it’s about the quality. Calling friends, family, have cut down drastically and it’s great! Especially when it seems so less fake now.
Day 17: Also in Chapter Twelve, I talk about how sunflowers are called sunflowers because they literally “turn toward the sun.” Talk about a time in your life when you turned toward the sun and chose the light when it would have been easier to settle for darkness.
It has to be the time after ending up in Hospital. I sometimes have “bad” days and by that I get so frustrated by how I can now tell how much my brain has changed. It would be so much easier to just be “angry” and not take any control over myself. I know I could be anxious all the time, if I wanted. Just stop and be anxious. But it’s not worth it at the same time. I’m still me, I just have trouble going into places now, that’s all. It’d be easier to be angry and drama driven all the time, I just can’t and I don’t want too…Sometimes it is a battle, but I’m up for the challenge! I also know though when to stop myself.
Day 18: In Chapter Thirteen, I talk about a favorite movie that has had an indelible impact on my life. Talk about YOUR favorite movie or movies that help you reconnect with who you are.
Well if you’ve been a reader of mine for a while now, you’ll know that the movie I love the most are generally all of the JRR Tolkien movies. It’s the movie I watch when I need to get lost and just remind myself…That there is some good fighting for in this world. I cannot watch it while other people are around. The only way I can watch it with other people around is if it’s on tv, and then there are commercials anyway. That is MY movie, if that makes sense?
Day 19: In Chapter Fourteen, I get “An Unexpected Apology.” Share a time when YOU got an unexpected apology from someone, and how it impacted your life.
That was in the last couple of years actually, and it was all thanks to Facebook! When I was in Year 6, I was bullied pretty badly and someone who had once been a best friend of mine was one of the bullies. Pretty much my whole class gave me a hard time. I had never been “hated” before. I wasn’t a spoilt princess, but neither was I hated on. So it was such a shock to me.
Come to 2017 and one of my old classmates sent me a random message on Facebook and apologised. Even though they weren’t the worst of the bullies, they sort of stood more to the side. Apparently apart of AA, they had to reach out and apologise to someone they’ve hurt and still feel bad about hurting. It did shape my life in the belief that people do understand what is wrong and what is right. It also made me realise how much I had learnt in that time. How I’ve handle bullies since then, they weren’t the last, but hopefully now…No more bullies.
Day 20: In Chapter Fifteen, I talk about losing someone precious to me, my grandmother. Talk about someone you’ve loved and lost, either to death or circumstance…and how loving them made you a better person.
As I mentioned in my last challenge, losing my Grandfather (my mums Dads) was probably the biggest lost of my life. No breakup, not even when my parents split up. Apart from losing my first dog. I cried when I lost my other pets, but I still mourn her. I don’t even like thinking about my Grandmother dying. My Pa loving me made a huge part of who I am today. Let me put it to you this way. This is the kind of man my Pa was.
My baby brother is a Drag Queen, he’s pretty well known in Melbourne, but he started in Adelaide. My brother also makes a lot of his own and other Drag Queen outfits. My Pa would sit there with my brother talking about his sewing, because like my Pa and his Carpenter type skills, they are both freakishly good at it. Perfect lining, they just know how to put something together. Once my Pa had past away, my Brother made a dress for his Drag persona, out of my Pa’s ties. I’ll have to see if I can find the picture. My brother hardly talks to my Dad, with good reason, but he’ll make a gorgeous drag dress out of my Pa’s ties.
Day 21: Also in Chapter Fifteen, I talk about falling for a “lost boy,” someone who was too broken and too selfish to ever be able to love me like I deserved. Talk about your own experiences with a Lost Boy. What did he teach you? And how did you learn and grow from finally letting him go?
Oh my goodness, as sweet as all my ex’s are (I don’t hate any of them, I hate what they did to me, but not them…If that makes sense?) I think they were all “Lost Boys”. Each one taught me something different. It’s very much a “Thank U, Next” situation. I think though even with the worst of people, you still learn something from them.
One taught me love One taught me patience And one taught me pain Now, I’m so amazing I’ve loved and I’ve lost But that’s not what I see So, look what I got Look what you taught me And for that, I say
Thank you, next (next)
Just wanted to add here as well One taught me friendship
I get asked this question…a lot! Especially since people have noticed that I am actually Australian, but seem to be heavily involved with American politics. I love it when people ask me “Why?”
People in America, mainly uneducated ones, don’t seem to realise that Trumps actions, his rulings, his tariffs affect people ALL AROUND THE WORLD…NOT just America. As a Globe we are far too connected to be “them vs us”. It’s just not possible anymore.
Take the Tariffs as an example: If it does happen, Trump will end up adding BILLIONS onto Australia’s debts. Australia also has a good exchange program with the Chinese, with children’s parents sending their children to each other countries. This would be too expensive to continue. Steel to build homes have gone up by at least 7k. Yes, Australians should be angry about that.
Too deny that our Politicians haven’t been influence by Trump is ridiculous. We have the lame politician called “Pauline Hanson” if you’ve never heard of her, it’s because she is a ridiculous politician. She’s the “leader” of the One Nation party and you’ll find that a lot of people who support Trump, support her. She is the politician that very recently put forward a motion saying that she wanted the House to say that “It’s okay to be white”. She toasted Trumps “victory” on live tv and then the report on her party was that they were dangerous. Yet, she still idolises him.
Last week I posted a review about a book that had taken me literally years to read:I DID IT!!!
The reason I’m writing this post is because in my previous post, I pointed out that I had had trouble with reading this particular book for years, and I do mean YEARS. I wont get into too much detail about what happened. Long story short, I went through and was going through a nasty breakup when I first started to read the book. There we two girls who made my life a living nightmare and ended getting a lot of people to hate me. Without these people having a conversation with me.
The book ended up being too close for comfort, because a lot of theme of the book was this women getting attacked from all sides. Most of the attacks came from people she cared about and with no one talking to her at all.
The point of my post today is that sometimes this does happen and most of the time it can be very unexpected. In fact, there has been recent discussion over the last couple of years about even putting “triggers warnings” in the front of some controversial books.
I think with a lot of us who like to read, we read to escape, and it can be very disappointing when we come across a book, that we were so excited to read and then realise, we cant’. I just want to tell you all:
IT IS OKAY TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN
Never ever force yourself to read a book you just cannot. It is okay to go to yourself “I cannot read that right now” I don’t care how much you were looking forward to it, or if it is really popular…Put It Down! There’s really only one way to make sure you start to hate to read and that would be to make yourself read a book you are just not ready for.
I have always called myself a mutt. I was born in Australia, both my parents are English, great grandparents, and we suspect that there is either Spanish or Indian. When I saw this video a light-bulb went off in my head. Everything that’s been going on lately, has really disturbed me.
I feel like we are trying to put ourselves and others into boxes than other before, while yet, telling others to keep an open mind? It is very much a us against them mentality. I don’t believe us vs them is helpful and it all feels very toxic. Like we are trying to segregate each other again. and Too me it’s a lot about our backgrounds and where we all come from. Except I strongly believe none of us know our TRUE backgrounds, what our cultures are. Which is why I believe each culture needs to be respected, but that it’s okay to share it with others. You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m sure that I’m not the only one ~.^
I read recently that 1 in 4 kids are not even their “fathers” child…One in 4! God knows how often that sort of thing was going on years ago as well, and we all know about the English Kings and Queens, and their affairs. Who knows where we truly come from?
My personal favourite was the English guy who said that he was 100% English and he hates Germans.
What is your favorite go to beverage? Water, coffee, tea, coke, soda (non-alcoholic)
If I had to choose from all of those it would have to be a nice cup of tea. Tea just always makes me feel better, it’s always a nice drink during Winter and when you are feeling poorly. Even during Summer, tea always seem like a good choice. It’s just so soothing.
Can you change a car tire?
No,lol
Are you a listener or talker?
I am definitely a listener, I am usually the quietest in all of the group I’m in. Sometimes I’m even an “unwilling” listener. You know the types you don’t want to or can’t deal with people that day, but they don’t notice the little signs that you keep putting out.
Would you rather have no internet or no cell phone?
I would rather have no internet, because at least with a cell phone I could keep in contact with everybody still. I could with the internet, but not everyone has a computer or something like an internet connection. Nearly everyone I know though has some sort of phone. I also find having a cell phone is much more handier in an emergency.
When we’re watching funny videos. In all honestly, there’s nothing like bringing people together like watching a video of a cat disgracefully face planting.
What daily habit would you like to introduce to your life?
I would like to do something creative every day, even it’s something to help me get creative. Having a little meditation session before doing something creative, something like that, or maybe even do the mediation every day and see what comes from that!
What one mini-little-adventure would you like to have in the coming week?
Speaking of crafts, one mini little adventure I want to have this week is actually to head to a craft store. I want to try and use some polymer clay to start shaping “things”. I have so many favourite online stores that sell this gorgeous polymer clay shaped animals and I want to see what I can do =D
List at least of things or events that changed your Life: It could be as simple as a book or meeting a certain person?
My last ex and not in a good way, everything he did still confuses and hurts me. Then I get angry at myself for it still affecting me, then I get mad at him, then I get mad at myself…It’s a never ending cycle.
At the same time meeting my now partner has been completely healing for me. There are still some-things that I get insecure about, but they are slowly healing. It’s funny because I honestly thought I would never meet someone like him. I thought that I had to heal all by myself. I refused to let other people help me.
The #SafariLive drives…They have brought such a positive vibe into my life. I can’t even really explain it. Even when the animals are hunting and killing each other, it’s still a positive place to be apart of. I think it’s to do with the chatters and how sweet they all are, really positive. Even with the animals killing each other, it’s because, that’s what they have to do to live. Which is a lot different from humans hunting them. I hated poachers before but now I just want to protect all the animals….I mean how could you want to harm something so sweet and cute!
In the past I have Blogged a couple of posts regarding a Facebook page called 1000 Voices for Compassion and on the 20th of each month there is a challenge and people write Blog topic based on the topic for that month. In the month of the May the topics “Connection” including reconnection and reconciliation.
So I will literally just write down whatever came to mind when I thought of the word “Connection”.
I think that is a really interesting topic because I find that as a general society rule we are less connected than ever before. Yet we have all these tools to help us communicate well and efficiently and yet as I have said before we have more of a society that wants to be “right” instead of discussing and talking with one another. You watch people (especially with Twitter) who bully and send death threats to people that they don’t even know. When did this become okay? Why has this become such a problem? How can someone be so disconnected that threatening and telling people that should “go and kill” themselves, became acceptable?
I have watched many “fights” on Facebook. You have many people who will literally write “who cares”. How poignant is that?! Clearly not them (that is a whole other topic though on people who want to write “who cares” and “this isn’t news” instead of scrolling past the topic). I have asked people on Facebook directly why they felt the need to write that statement, why didn’t they just scroll past and get on with their day. Why do they think what they like is so much more and better than other? Yet, when people ask them, they get really upset?
Have we lost the connection with what is really important, how can we get it back, whose to blame, is there one area to blame or is it just everything these days? Have we lost the connection with the earth, the planet, our basic simple ways. Have we become to diverse to be able to really handle and accept the differences in others? Are we not ready to CONNECT with the other different souls on this planet? Is it too much for us to handle right now.
I believe that it is time to reconnect with and within ourselves. Go back to the basics and take a long look at what we are doing and what kind of legacy and story do we want to leave behind. I believe that we need to reconnecting with ourselves every know and then, to take a hard look at ourselves and asked ourselves “What is important to us”. Do these people really want to leave the story behind of them threatening and telling people to die behind the cowardice of a screen?
Take that walk back in a nature, kick up the leaves during autumn. Mediate…Listen to what our souls are telling us to do, telling us the path that we should take. Shut out the world of the technology. and connect with our spirits again. I think that we need to reconnect within ourselves again.
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