I am Beautiful…Part 2

I decided to continue on with my post from yesterday I am Beautiful. I am achieving this by writing a list of things that make me beautiful, that have nothing to do with my looks. Please feel free to share and please feel free to use this for your own post! As Mama Ru says

Ru Paul

I am beautiful because:

I know how it feels to feel alone and not worth it and I will do all I can to make sure others don’t feel like that. Even as an adult I will hug my plush toys/dolls to not burden others with my problems. Even on my worst days, I don’t take my problems out on others, and if I feel like I can’t handle others problems, I’ll walk away until I can. I know how to listen, even when or ESPECIALLY when it’s something I don’t want to hear or know about. I randomly post happy/cute videos on my Facebook when I can see lots of people are having a bad day, to try and cheer them up. As I’ve gotten older, I have learnt it’s okay to love myself. I love to learn about new cultures and I try to incorporate them into my own life. I know that as long as you are not hurting others, or yourself, there should be no stopping you from doing whatever you want. I know that there us a beauty is saying “Goodbye”.

The Single Blog … Mandy Hale

As I mentioned last week, every week for the week of January I will be posting the link to Mandy Hales “”A Beautifully Uncertain 31-Day Challenge” (Found here at:http://thesinglewoman.net/).

We are now in Week Two of the challenge. I’m mainly reposting these ones in January because as I mentioned before, I believe that when you have goals and resolutions you need to start somewhere as soon as you have decided to do it and just do something each day. You need to make it part of your routine.

A Beautifully Uncertain 31-Day Challenge: Week Two

The only thing I would say about Day 8’s challenge is, if you are genuinely friends with your ex, don’t do that one. Otherwise, do it. Number 12, even when I am in a relationship, I still like to do that one. I actually learned about how amazing that one is while in a really bad relationship and it gave me a lot of my confidence back, enough to leave the bum! =P

https://lolsyslibrary.wordpress.com/2016/01/04/the-single-woman-blog/ Here’s the repost from last week.

Hard Lessons

I have a Twitter account … If you want to follow me I’m at LaurenBolton3 … I mainly it use for the Safari Drive and writing live tweets, but I retweet other things too! Craft ideas, petitions, interesting article, follow a lot of Cosplayers on there … All that stuff).

One of the people that follow on there is the delightful Chrissy Teigen (married to the legendary John Legend … Get It!) and she replied to a tweet (

It made me think because it is an interesting concept, as  the people who replied to the Tweet also gave me something to really think about (

… Seen here.

I was one of those people who wanted a group of people who I didn’t even like, to like me? It’s interesting to me, because over the last year I have really been trying to take them out and it was working and I have felt so much better. So why for so many years was I trying to get these people to just “like me”? I didn’t like them, I don’t even respect them that much. So what is with this human need to get people who don’t like us, to like us? It doesn’t even feel like a “survival” need, because how could something that makes us feel that badly, help us to continue to live? You can’t live to your full potential, if something brings you down that badly.

The thing that stays with me is I’m not like that with romantic relationships. A lot of them (except for one and there were good reasons behind that one) when they’re over, they were over. SO why did I find it so hard to let go of “friendships” that weren’t even that important to me?

That greener grass

I’ve had a few interesting times over this last year, just personally I’ve felt like I’ve changed a lot and have become a lot more sure of who I am.

As a general rule when someone goes through something like a lot of things, for example your friendships. Also though women I used to really admire, use to really look up too, I have down a full 180 on them. They’re all smart, successful in their careers, stunningly beautiful, they take really good care of their health. Even though they are some of my best friends

However there is one thing that I’ve never really realised before, they can’t be alone. They are always with someone. These smart, successful, beautiful women NEED to have a men in their life to make their life “credible”.

There’s this one girl who is actually one of my ex’s, ex’s before me. She cheated on my ex with his best friend and they eventually got married. Ever since I’ve known her though, my ex was planning on asking her to marry him, had the ring, everything, but she turned him down because she was in love with his best friend. I’ve noticed though, she seems to get remarried every couple of years. Recently I noticed that she was already dating someone (via taking a picture of herself in her underwear) and her last post with her husband has only been two weeks beforehand on Facebook. Yet, no one else seems to have noticed? It’s like she’s going through so many guys no one even cares any-more.

Then there’s one of my best friends, obsessed is an understatement with her finding a guy. It’s pretty much all our conversations have been over the last two years…I am not even kidding. She’s been hypnotherapy, all sorts of things…None of it seems to work. Then she’ll meet some guy and for the next month she’ll be in total love and then he turns out to be a jerk or just doesn’t like her as much as she likes him and it’s all over again.

One of the things that fascinates me though the most is that neither of these girls wants to have children. So what’s with the desperation? You can get married at any age.

That’s beside the point though, it’s just fascinating that these two women who I used to really admire and wish that I had their life, I’m glad that I don’t have their life.

Tonight is the Night!

girls night out

Tonight is the Night!

Tonight is my first girls night out since my break up and I am ready for it! The break was what…Month and a half? Two weeks since we stopped being friends and I need a cute guy (or two) to get a bit flirty with, not dirty with…Just flirty. I might even have a glass of champagne first before I head out…Crazy! I’m a bit of “light weight” so I don’t drink when I go out and it’s not at a friends house…or mine own!lol

In all honesty I am really nervous about this night. You see, I had this really odd plan on staying with my ex for the rest of my life, definitely the rest of this year…at least. There is just something different about “A Girls Night out” that just feels automatically different from going out with a mixed sex group of people. There’s is honestly no one else I want to be on the planet with than my ex, but a girl has to move on and although I don’t expect to find the love of my night tonight. I do want to get a little flirty, not flirty dirty, just flirty =D…I’m not ready for dirty yet ~.^

Uploaded on 8 Oct 2009

Music video by Shania Twain performing Man! I Feel Like A Woman. (C) 2003 Mercury Records