Why don’t you know?

So, my father is an alcoholic.

My name is Lauren…and my father is an alcoholic…Not matter what he says, he is.

Just before Christmas he decided, after numerous goes at me, he decided he didn’t want to come down for Christmas. Then got mad at me when he decided he was going to come and he wouldn’t change our plans. Then he was not coming at all. Which was fine.

However the night before Christmas Eve, so Christmas Eve Eve. He decided to go on a rant about my brother. They’ve never had a good relationship, all on my father. Seeing us on average, once a month for about 3 hours…Does not a parent make. However he made a comment and I REALLY wanted to respond, if he had kept going I would have, I was in that kind of mood. The comment?

“I don’t know what happened to him”

Now, why oh WHY would you not know what happened to him?

I wonder if my Dad has ever REALLY asked himself that? Why don’t you know what has happened to my brother? My brother, as much as I do love him, can be extremely selfish. As soon as my parents separated, we never saw my father again, other than when he tried to hurt my Mum, which never worked. It just hurt his own children, who still, kind of liked him. My brother never got told off ever again, it was always put on me.

Not only did I have to contend with people saying that I had to take my Mums side, full grown adults, telling a 12 year old she had take sides. My brother didn’t do any chores, didn’t finish high school and still got the same amount of pocket money I did. My brother is really smart, just one of those really lazy people.

Yet, to this day every adult I know says “Why is your brother like that?”

Since my brother has moved away, he has gotten better with paying people back and just being generous…But still…I can tell them why!

 

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Do NOT threaten Children! Why is this even a thing I have to say!

#Love4Maddie

I could NOT believe what I reading yesterday! I thought for sure that I was mistaken what I was reading…No, it was true.

Hate Trackers Online… Read and prepared to get angry!

Please read the above link before reading my post!

I am SO angry right now! I am going to try and keep this short…There is a sickness hovering over American right now. Until their “Leader” starts condemning “things” like these people…(I would call them potato looking things, but that would be an insult to potatoes)….The cancer will continue to grow! What a shocker all the Trump supporters only focusing on the transgender “issue”…It is NEVER okay to have a group of “adults” making plans to kill and bully children…NEVER! DO YOU HEAR ME! NEVER! NEVER FREAKING EVER!!! I don’t give a crap how you feel about transgender people…Until Fox News, NRA and Trump start condemning these people instead of joining them AGAINST CHILDREN…I don’t want to hear one word about how about the immigration issues are to “protect the children” WHILE YOU ARE BULLYING THEM!!!! There are no “fine people” who threaten to kill children! #Love4Maddie…That was me, keeping it short,lol

I have also decided that I am not going on Facebook for a VERY long time…Why do people keep expecting you to help them…But then do not help you! I am sick of it! No more selfies for Facebook either! What’s the point of doing nothing but selfies? If I wanted that I’d go to Instagram all the time,lol…Not ONE person expressed their outrage at the Maddie situation…Not one! Only two people donated to my Dry July…THEN people who did NOT donate, sent messages saying we had to help them! WTF! I am SO sick of Facebook!

STOP ASKING PEOPLE TO HELP YOU WHEN YOU DO NOT HELP OTHERS!

WordPress is legitimately the ONLY place I really feel like I can discuss actual issues…Other than how gorgeous we so clearly are! We don’t need to take photo after photos to prove anything!

Inbetween

Child or Childless…Or are you an “InBetweener”?

I am an “InBetweener”…I can see myself having children one day, but neither am I obsessing about it either. I have my Furbabies and one day will have the ‘hooman babies’ too…Maybe…

This is where my random thought lies.

One of the issues that I have being an inbetweener, you are neither accepted by the “having children” group and neither are you accepted by the “choosing not have children” group either…You are alone in an ever expanding abysmal abyss.

My main issue apart from consistently feeling unwanted is what if I can’t have children, do I get excluded forever? Not having children means currently that people think my time is not valuable, that I can just drop everything at the last moment for their children, without even being asked if I am actually able to come…And to me, there’s no respect in that. When I choose not drop everything somehow I end up being the “worst person ever”…As I was called once when I decided to go to my friends birthday, which I had been asked to come to weeks beforehand, over not going to my cousins kids 7th birthday, which I had only been told about the night before.

I do mean “told”…and not… “asked” if I can come…It is amazing an amount of difference between those two words.

At the same time, I am also constantly left out of conversations by my friends who choose not have children. Take the past Mothers Day here in Australia…One of my best friends decided to tag every single girlfriend of ours, who are not having children and not me in a post about being furbaby mama…I am one too…So why leave me out as well? I found it extremely hurtful.

So I made a post about wishing every type of Mother out there a Happy Mothers Day. That’ll show them!

Libraries are Magic!

Libraries are still a magic places to visit, especially for the children. My grandmother was a Library Manager and I used to spend a lot of time at her Library and I guess it’s what has inspired me the most. It just feels like such a shame that more Libraries just don’t have the funding to make their Libraries looks like these.

The most magical children’s sections in Libraries – Goodreads

Take your children, grandchildren, nieces and nephews to your local Library today!…Right now…GO, GO GO!

Babies!Babies!Babies!

I was invited to a baby shower and it’s for my partners cousins. So I have to make a really good impression, except for the whole I might not even be able to make it!

However instead of getting a whole bunch of baby things, they want us to give them a book. Which I personally think is great, but now the pressure is on to get a really great book!

So, my amazing readers, what should I get? Should I get one book or a series? Should I get something else as well “on the side”.

Share Your World…Week 29

Share Your World – 2015 Week #29

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?

I wanted to be a ballet dancer when I was little, I still love to dance, but I love Latin dancing more than Ballet these days. I think it was more about being on stage and getting to dress up.

What was your favorite food as a child? Do you eat it now? 

I was always a weird one, I actually used to really enjoy my vegetables and I LOVED my banana’s. I swear that I eat worse now than when I was a kid.

If you were invisible, where would you go?

I think honestly I would go to the beach and just there for a bit and just enjoy the view (apart from the fact that it’s the middle of Winter here right now) Sounds like a great plan!

Would you rather forget everyone else’s name all the time or have have everyone for your name all the time?

I would rather have other people forget my name all the time, I would be horrified to forget other peoples name! I AM horrified when I forget people’s names,lol