400!

I  hit the 400 followers mark this week! I am so incredibly excited and incredibly grateful.

For those who don’t know, I started this Blog as a school project and it’s progressed from there. Since I didn’t really have a plan to start off this Blog with, it has made many changes over the times I’ve had it. It is the longest diary/journal I have ever had. Although I’m not honestly sure I would call it that because, it’s isn’t like I’m writing extremely personal entries on here.

I love this Blog world. I really do, I feel safe on here. The people I’ve met on here, the way it’s change my life. It really as, I cannot talk about the topics and issues that I do with the people that I do on here with my own friends. It’s kind of sad really. I have to be honest. I think no one really wants to hear it, the people I know. Anytime I bring a topic on my Facebook, people just don’t want to hear it…Ironically, if you play the “happy” on Facebook, they’ll respond to that. Even though every single self-aware adult knows how fake Facebook is. Apparently it’s not okay to stand for something on Facebook. Damn, I am OVER fake! It almost seems to me that people want to encourage the fake, not the real.

That’s why I love the Blogging World. It doesn’t seem to have the extreme negativity that other sites Facebook and Instagram have. Why that is, I don’t know. It has the discussions, it has the fun. It deals with the real and the fake. I feel like I can be, I discuss whatever it is that I want too. People are reading what is in my brain, rather than judging me on what I look like, or what I dress up like…It’s so freeing!

The only thing that I honestly wish is that I could hang out with the people from the Blogging world.

This or That? #48

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This or That? #48

This week Bookmark Chronicles wondering…

Is there a book or series that you enjoyed when you read it, but would change your mind about now?

I think sometimes when you change and grow up it can actually make you look at some favourite series differently. I just recently found a lot of my old “Sweet Valley High” books and I was obsessed with them when I was younger, I used to want to have their life. I was obsessed with everything Sweet Valley High.

As I reread I expected to immediately fall in love with it again, maybe I’ve become more cynical, maybe I’ve become more grown up and want a different kind of experience, but I just didn’t enjoy it as much as I used to. It just seemed all a little silly to me, it was exactly like a soap opera, which I guess it is. I still liked reading it, but I wasn’t as inspired as I once was.

Life Lessons…The hardest of Lessons

This is a little different post for “Life Lessons of the Libraries” and I feel like it’s one of the hardest lessons to learn and I am learning it again…For the millionth times.

Sometimes I feel like heartbreak in a romantic relationship is more than a majority of the time, inevitable. The breaking of a friendship though can sometimes be if not just as hard, but sometimes harder than the break down of a romantic relationship. Clearly there are different variables.

I seem to be going through this with some friends who I thought I was really close with. They just seem to have cut themselves off from me and any-time that I plan to meet up with them, they keep cancelling. The biggest insult is when they’ll hang out with people I introduced them too!

I think the hardest things about these situations is you never seen them coming. You think you are really close and then suddenly you are completely blind-sided. Which is why I find friendship breakups really hard, because you very rarely see them coming. Especially when you are getting dumped for a group of people who are just horrible. Case example, Girls brother comes up to me (guys have been dumping me to be with this girl) and I feel uncomfortable talking to her brother about it. Except he says “They only like girls who can’t think for themselves”…That was the last time I saw that group. However, it’s kind of personally insulting to me to be dumped for a group like that -.- Where siblings have no respect for each other.

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So I have been going through a lot of personal stuff at the moment, the big thing is I don’t know if I am going to have a job in the next couple of weeks. Which as you can imagine is just incredibly stressful. It’s been making me really take a hard look at a few things. I’m not actually even supposed to know about this situation. See, I work as a casual so our contract is usually renewed every three-four months depending on the time of year and it’s been like this for the last couple of years. This time they have apparently decided not to renew any contracts. My manager has apparently been so shocked by this and she is trying to fight for us, so I have no idea what’s going on.

The thing that’s irritated me the most about this situation is no one has actually told us and considering the contract we’re on finishes in the next couple of week, not months, I am looking strongly for another job. One that is a lot more stable.

As you can imagine that has taken an impact on my whole life. It’s really made me think though I would love to do some kind of “at home” business, except then the questions happen “What do I actually decide to do”. I have so many people around me who are just SO creative and they are doing amazing things with their creations. I’m all over here and like … I don’t know what I do well … I love to dress up and I would love to Cosplay stuff … It’s kind of intimidating for me though, my brother is this amazing seamstress and makes incredible clothes.

Sorry all … I think that this is definitely more of a “rambling” type blog today. Do any of you, my amazing readers, have your own business that you run from home? What inspired you to start? What is your inspiration? I would really love to read what you have to offer.

Time for an unexpected change?! O.O

Over the last few days I’ve been asking for feedback about my Library job applications. It’s been a bizarre situation, I haven’t been able to get any interviews for just a casual Library position. I keep getting interviews for Managerial positions, which I never get because I am nowhere qualified for.

With the feedback, the only feedback I’ve been getting back is they wont give me any feedback because they’ve gotten too many applications. Which I get, but I highly doubt all of the applicants are getting back to them and asking for personal feedback. All of this has been making me incredibly depressed, I’m starting to wonder if the Library career is the one for me. I have even considered moving interstate where I know there are more opportunities, but now I can’t =/

So I’ve decided that I am going to keep applying for jobs for one more year and then I am going to stop trying so hard. However, I am starting to think that I want to try some different career, even possibly starting a small “on-the-side” business. Except I have no idea where to start because working in a Library is kind of unique.

What’s to be done with this Homer Simpson?

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I just thought that I’d put this video up because how true is this?! I’m at a point in my life where I can feel that everything is just changing. But what’s to be done? Where does one start? I can’t keep living the life I’ve been living, I am so happy in my romantic relationship and I am enjoying too much just hiding away every single weekend with him, I just can’t keep doing that any- more.

Naturally I am an introvert, but even I have to get out and see people. Unfortunately a lot of people are driving me nuts at the moment, which is why it is easy for me to hideaway.

The other problem is that I have possibly TOO many ideas going on in my head, so many ideas and no idea where I can start with any of it. I would love to do something, possibly using my Blog to sell stuff, start my own fantasy jewellery online shopping. Cosplaying is something I’m looking into, but even with that. Sewing is not my “forte” and I have no idea where to start!

Any help?!

 

Changes are coming!

This is definitely feeling to be the year where I think for certain things are definitely going to happen. I already feel fussy and I know that if I don’t get to doing something soon the motivation will disappear, but the problem is…Where to start?

I already have ideas for doing some cosplays this year, but I don’t sow so I don’t even know if it’s “wrong” to get someone else to make an outfit for me. I know what I wish to do, but we’ll see if it happens. Cosplaying is not cheap at all!

There is also some motivation for this blog and maybe writing up some reviews. Now I have never done a professional type of review before, I have always just written my personal opinion, so will have to do some research into that. I have actually thought about starting to write a novel of some kind, but I really feel like you have to have a calling for that. I’m not sure what I’d write about or where to even start!

Watch this space for more, changes are happening…

Why? Goodbye my almost lover <3

As you probably have guessed (and from me blogging about it constantly) I have broken up with my last ‘beau’.

We were at that stage when we were both “Lets be friends” and everything was hunky dorey and we kept telling each other how much we missed each other…and then…One of us (i.e. him) decided to do something stupid and I found out about it (mainly because his friend posted it on his Facebook account). So now we’re at the “don’t speak to me ever again” point.

I’m not sure why this seems to happen to me, but my ex’s always tend to run straight to the person (their friend) who made my life the most horrible/miserable. So the first thing that happens is this person makes sure that I am aware of this. I have no idea why this seems to happen to me every single break up (and I am not exaggerating). On the plus side though it makes letting go THAT much easier. I honestly believe who you CHOOSE to be friends with, no matter how much you may “claim” not respect or like them. If you hang around people…Doesn’t that make YOU much worse than them? At least they are truly being the morons everyone believes them too be.

This is something that I have struggled with every single break up. I am sitting there defending them to my friends and family (when necessary) and yet my ex’s run to the people who hurt me the most, while claiming they have no respect for them? Pretty much (to me at least) proving what truly kind of person you are? If you choose to hang out with someone who uses a private medical condition as a weapon to hurt someone, makes up stories that you tell everyone else EXCEPT the person you are actually apparently mad at and passively aggressively cut out your so-called “life-long best friends” and that’s who choose to be with…You, my ex-friend, have everything coming to you.

Even as I am writing this my views are constantly changing…Now I am at “I don’t even care…I always remember how you chose them over me…Too have a deep and meaningful, you have to be deep and meaningful to begin with -.-“…

Uploaded on 12 Jan 2009

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Music video by Katy Perry performing Thinking of You. (C) 2008 Capitol Music Group, a division of Capitol Records, LLC

 

 

100th Post Celebrations!!!

YAY!!! It’s my 100th post and I feel like celebrating…Never for a moment would I think I would ever stick at something for this long. In the past when I have started Blogging or journal writing I give up after a few entries. Too have made it this far is a huge achievement for myself.

It is amazing to me that this started as a school assignment and now it has become something that it a part of my daily life. I have never expressed so much to an unknown public in my life before. I have made entries that even my closer friends have had no idea is happening in my life. I have made good friends on here that I feel comfortable talking to and somehow feel safer in these friendships.

It has been an amazing journey and I can honestly say writing on this Blog has helped me out so much in my own personal life, in a way that I could never have imagined! It has been amazing! =D

I have been trying to think of something special to do but all I’ve been able to come up with is the video uploaded below. My next big plans is to change the look of my Blog, it’s been this way for pretty much a year now and with the 100th post it is definitely a good time for a change. I’m still not sure where I want to take this, but I have been SO inspired by other fellow bloggers that I want to spice my own Blog up more and get more interactive!

So I shall grin too myself, have a nice celebratory cup of coffee and you can all start watching this space for more…

Uploaded on 5 Oct 2009
Music video by Kool & The Gang performing Celebration. (C) 1980 The Island Def Jam Music Group