Share Your World!

So I have started a new Blog Challenge! Share Your World! The questions are asked every single Monday, but I will be posting mine on Thursday.

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Share Your World

Share Your World – 2015 Week #14

What type of music relaxes you the most or do you prefer silence?

This is kind of a “little from column A and a little from column B” answer. I have moods where I need the music to distract myself, but I also have the times where I need the silence. I have found a type of music though recently (literally this week) where I can listen to the music at any-time … Look up David Arkenstone, you wont be disappointed!

Show us a two of your favorites photographs?  Explain why they are your favorite.   If you are not a photographer, think of a two favorite scenes in your life and tell us about them.

Ellie3 This is more a of a screenshot of a live safari feed that I watch. If you read my Blog, you will already know how much I love this Safari feed. This one just reminds me of how little baby elephants truly are. How anyone could want to kill such a sweet thing, is beyond me.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA Oh, come on…What’s NOT to love about this photo?lol…It created such fun and happy times.

What is your favorite tradition? (family tradition, church tradition, whatever)

Christmas…I LOVE Christmas and over the years we have changed some and improved others. One of my favourite traditions though is when the adults have our secret santa presents. My Grandfather passed a few years ago and one of his “things” was to wrap presents in newspaper, and since he passed every Christmas the adults wrap their secret Santa presents in newspaper. One of the reasons its my favourite is because we live all over the country, we swap newspapers to wrap the presents in and spend most of the day trying to guess who is whose “Secret Santa”.

If you could go back and talk to yourself at age 18 what advice would you give yourself?  Or if you are younger than 25 what words of wisdom would you like to tell yourself at age 50?

Keep up with the travelling, but work towards becoming a Librarian earlier. If you have to work full time and study at the same time…DO IT!

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

My partner not making me feel guilty about wanting to spend some alone time, because I was stressed out about an assignment due this week. I am looking forward to NOT having to make another public presentation…Ever Again!lol

Love in ten sentences…

I was nominated by the lovely Passion through Poetry to participate in the “Love in Ten Sentences” http://movingtowardsthelight.com/2015/03/13/love-in-ten-sentences/ The basis concept is is to write a ten line poem each containing four words and the letter “love”. Mine doesn’t rhyme (I actually wrote this a few days ago, but I was unsure whether to to post it or not) and in case you couldn’t guess it was a bad day for me =P

Love that’s been abused,

True torment, love heals

Pain lives, Love dies,

Love those around instead

Love carries swirling emotions

Heart carries love burden,

Love damages the heart,

Love cures the heart,

I love my heart,

I love it most.

 The other thing I need to do is nominate 10 people. I am not one of those people or Bloggers that will force another person to do this, so please feel free to do or not to do,lol. In no particular order I nominate:

Role Reversal?

Here I am again, feeling frustrated because no matter how many times I have rejected a guy. Apparently it is MY responsibility to make them feel better again and for months to listen to how much they like me and how strong they’re feelings are for me. Even though I have made it clear that 1) I am NOT interested and 2) I have met someone.

If I did this, I would be call ‘crazy’, ‘pathetic’ and ‘stalkerish’. Yet, if I call them that and I don’t just sit there, take it and listen to something that I think is actually unhealthy and not helpful at all, I’m a bitch. Why? Why do we just have to put up with these guys harassing us? The emotional blackmail as well! I got so fed up with one guy today I literally broke and started to lose it. When I told this guy I was refusing to talk about any-more his feelings for me (I said no to him mid-December and he knows I’m dating someone else) because it was clearly not healthy and it was clearly not helpful for him. He tried to turn it back on me “Oh, I was just asking how you were doing”. I LOST it! I have not lost it like that in a really long time.

I literally FEAR rejecting guys now, I really do fear it. I have been humiliated on Facebook because of rejecting someone, which honestly made me even MORE glad that I chose to say no to that guy. Why anyone of them (a group of people decided to tag me in a picture that basically called me a “bitch” and posted it on their Facebook, they wouldn’t have dared to post it on my own wall) would think that that would make me want to date him more is beyond me. I have had guys go off on me while in their cars, that is scary as!

Guy listen to me…Man up! Not one single girl I know finds it sexy to constantly harass us after we have rejected you, in fact, it makes us want to stay away from you even more you and humiliating us does NOT work for us! Not one single girl I know has changed her mind after you posted on her wall any type of “friendzone” meme. It makes us even more glad that we don’t choose you, except we can’t say that because we’ll be called a bitch and then have our name dragged through the mud.

30 Days of Gratitude…Self Gratitude

Before I was going to write individually on each of these last few days what I was grateful for, but it’s been such a crazy week that I have decided to leave these last few days and write what I’m most grateful in one big go…So here I go…

Self Gratitude 

I have decided that I NEED to change my life. After months of going back and forth with my last ex, I realised I didn’t trust him any-more, especially not the way that I did once. I have to take my ownership in that. I don’t think that he was a bad person, but I needed to be more sensible in the choice that I was making. I needed to ask him hard questions before we started dating. Which started making me think about all of my past relationships and question why they have thought it was alright to treat me the way they did, when they don’t do it to anyone else? What made them look into the eyes of someone they were supposed to have loved and cared about and go “You’re going to get hurt by this and I don’t care”?

I have decided that I am too hard on myself. I trip myself up by worrying to much about how everyone else is feeling and doing and then I end up putting myself on the back burner. So then I don’t achieve all the things that I needed to, to get anywhere in this life. This includes family, friends, everything aspect of my life. Even if my family don’t think I cook, when I cook a lot (sorry I don’t put everything I make on Facebook *rolls eyes*) Doesn’t mean I have to stop cooking things I enjoy cooking.

I think that the hardest thing in this life is to be grateful for yourself. Its you who gets you through those tough days ultimately. Your mind, your body, your spirit. Its yourself who chooses to step up and take care of yourself.

The Single Woman’s 30-Day Blogging Challenge! Day 1 – “7”

Technically I know it’s only been 5 days since New Years (still can’t believe that!) but it’s also Sunday, which is the end of a calendar week and so far so good!

So as I mentioned at the end of last year I would be taking up a Blogging challenge! It’s called “The Single Woman’s 30-Day Blogging Challenge” and would post a weekly blog with the answers in groups of seven and here is the first group:

1)      Your response to everyone’s favorite question: “And why are YOU still single?”

Well my first response is I normally laugh that question off with “I choose jerks and bad guys all the time” When I really look into it though, that has a bit to do with it. Considering I’m friends with all of my ex’s except for one (because he really is a jerk), they cannot be that bad. It’s a horrible question because if I knew that answer to that I probably wouldn’t be single to begin with!

I don’t think I am making completely horrible decisions with the guys I’m picking. I know what I want and at the time these guys genuinely seem like they can provide it. I have talked about marriage and kids with all three of my relationships and I didn’t like bringing up the conversation. So I always felt like they did really want it, because they were thinking of it. The hardest relationship was my first, which was long distance, because I was too young to understand what a great relationship we had. With neither of us willingly to make that sacrifice, that was it. It’s hard sometimes because I still think he very easily could have been the one.  I have actually told him that he was my favourite so far.

I enjoy being single and I think that’s a majority of my problem.  I remember with one relationship where I actually use to tell my boyfriend not to come with me, because I knew he wouldn’t enjoy and he would sulk and that would upset me. It ended being so bad I still wish I had spent one New Year without him! I think when I meet the one where I enjoy being in a relationship more than being single that’ll be the one for me!

2)      Describe a moment or a day when being single really sucked.

Like the author who created this blog challenge, I 99% of the time LOVE my single life. There’s just this one moment where I feel it really sucks to be single. Those nights where the thunderstorm is just perfect, perfect for snuggling and having that lazy sleepy conversation that is full of your fears as you both can’t sleep from the thunderstorm. That conversation where nothing necessarily “happens” but just that moment reminds me that I’m single.

3)      Describe a moment or a day when being single was really awesome.

I feel like there have just been so many moments! I am one of those girls that enjoys being single and I have no problem with it. A few moments that stand out though are my formals, I actually was single for both. Most of the couples ended up in fights, the girls wanted to dance and the guys didn’t, the girls got mad at their boyfriend for daring to look at another girl and there was me running about, dancing, eating, jumping in to take photos and dancing again. Even this past new year’s, I was salsa dancing all night with gorgeous men…I have never salsa danced before!

4)      Your biggest fear as a single person.

My biggest fear is honestly when I got out, especially when it’s in the city or downtown. That is mainly because though I am a tiny person and I know that if someone wants to hurt me that they really can if they want too. I am not going to lie when I say that this is one of the reasons I like guys with the big arms. They give the impression that they can protect me!

5)      The biggest misconception you think people have about single life

That because I’m single that I MUST want to date…This is not true at all! Yes, I would love to find a companion to be with and I have no doubt that when I find “the one” I’ll know and that everything will be fine. If I was to date someone now, especially with everything that I’ve been through, it would completely end in disaster. I remember when I was about 24 and I went to a psychics show weekend and I had a reading done on myself and they said that I would meet the ‘one’ in my early thirties and thinking at the time “That’s so far away!” I’ve been told that two by two different psychics!…Now being only being a few months away from 30, this looks like the reality…I will never doubt a psychic ever again! lol

6)      Sound off on the quote “Every woman has the exact love life she wants”

I think this is debatable. Mainly because I didn’t go into a relationship hoping that it would end, I wanted them all to last and they all ended for different reasons. Sometimes you love someone and they just don’t love you anymore, sometimes you realise the relationship is going to go nowhere even if you want it too. For myself, personally, I would have done anything to keep my first relationship and we are still good friends even today! It was pretty much impossible to be together anymore, so that is not exactly what I want…Then again you could debate that is exactly what I wanted, to end it.

How many times have you liked someone and they just don’t like you back? That’s not exactly what I want!

7)      Where you are in your life vs. where you thought you would be at this point

Absolutely not! Ten years ago I and probably everyone else around me thought I’d be the first to get married, to have kids…and now I’m the last in my family to do so! I didn’t know what I wanted to do and now I want to do nothing else but work in a Library, anything else would feel like a drain.

For more information please click this link :http://thesinglewoman.net/2013/10/04/the-single-womans-30-day-blogging-challenge/