30 Day writing challenge… Day 2

2. Write about something that someone told you about yourself, that you never forgot.

Someone once told me that, because I’m such a laid-back person. When I’m mad, whoever made me mad, must have done something really wrong to get me that angry. I remember it well, because about two weeks later. This same person wrote me an email saying what a horrible person I was.

The reason I was so horrible?

Because I had written a status about how great it felt just too really laugh and not feel so sad, after my first heartbreak. I know, right? How horrible I am.

It just really stuck with me, because of the contradictions in just a couple of weeks. I got a nearly four page email about how horrible I was, because they had been trying to make me laugh. Which I had never said that they didn’t. I’m sure we’ve all been there, when you have a really big laugh after something devastating. How good it feels. How releasing it is. Maybe they had just never felt that devastated before or something?

It was just a weird couple of weeks and then I felt like I couldn’t write anymore posts after that, without offending someone. This was way before it was “cool” to offended,lol. This was over 10 years ago.

So am I a horrible person or not?

Goodreads 2019 and beyond…

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2020 Goodreads

I’ve decided to keep up with the same number of books that I had in 2019. I felt like it was a good amount of books. Enough to keep me going, but if I become disinterested, it didn’t really matter too much. Others have pledged, on average 57 books a month! That’s nearly more than two a day! I’m a fast reader, but unless I’m being paid. That’s not going to happen,lol.

Marathon!

I know that this was done in April, but I literally discovered it on my birthday (April 29th) and I wanted to do it when I wasn’t already reading two other books.

https://thisismytruthnow.com/agatha-christie-readathon/

The Challenge:

Winning Books & Date to Read By

  • The Secret Adversary (Other) – 4/6
  • Peril at End House (Poirot) – 4/13
  • The Body in the Library (Re-Read) – 4/20
  • Murder at the Vicarage (Marple) – 4/27

Obviously I wont stick to the dates BUT I will read and review one, once a week…I love it because apart from “The Body in the Library”, I actually don’t know much about the others…I may know a little about the “Murder at the Vicarage”. Off the top of my head though, I don’t remember much about it.

I am doing this from next week. I am also going to have to switch the book around a little because I haven’t been able to get all the books in at the same time.

The first one that I am going to be reading is “Murder at the Vicarage” This is because this is the first one that’s come in too be completely honest. I’m looking forward to it, too be honest, I have only watched the tv series and movies. As well as Biographies about Agatha Christie, so I am really looking forward to it! From next week I will start reading these books:

June 12th – Murder at the Vicarage.

June 19th – TBA.

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Challenges

52. Did the Challenge change you?

I don’t think that the Challenge changed me, but it definitely did make me think more. I loved doing it because there were definitely times during the weeks that it made me think about things that made me happy. I needed that this year! A couple of times, as well, it got me too write something when I just wanted to lie on the couch. It got me up, thinking and writing and that I am VERY grateful for!

I am now currently in the process of trying to find a new Challenge for 2018.

 

Dictionary Day

Today is Dictionary Day! Maybe not the most exciting book that’s out there…

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It may be one of those most important books out there though!

I do have a little challenge for you all though and you don’t have to post it on here, but you can if you want too. Every day or every week randomly choose a word from the Dictionary, write it down, write down it’s meaning and research it.

Do You Dare?

I think I can, I think I can, I know I can

13. A Challenge you’ve overcome

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Well I haven’t overcome my anxiety…yet…but I will!

*Long Post Incoming!*

Let me explain…

So I will reflect on a time when I felt like “Why does everybody hate me” I was getting cyber-bullied, when cyber-bullying wasn’t even a really a “thing” yet. I felt like it was never going to end and it made go so inside myself…metaphorically…I never felt like I was going to recover…Mainly because the bullying just didn’t seem to be ceasing.

The odd thing about the situation was I had never met the “ring leader” she had just decided that she didn’t like me. She didn’t want to be with my boyfriend, but constantly would use him. Even within 24 hours after we broke up she just HAD to tell me how he had tried to kiss her, she felt it was only right to be honest with me…I managed to keep my cool…And then found out a couple of days later he had actually tried to kiss everybody…and I do mean everybody…Guys included…It just got even worse after we broke up, with her. My ex and I are now fine, we’re actually really good friends.

It went on for about 6 months roughly. 6 months of stressing, every second day throwing up, every day getting some sort of message about how horrible of a human being I was, losing friends because I unfriended her (those are not real friends by the way). This was going on every day, or at least every other day for 6 months…It felt so much longer at the time.

After that 6 months I started to realise something, which then changed my life and the way I deal with girls and situations like this. How unhappy must she be? For all the talk about how much she loves the guys and by love I mean she constantly talked about how much she wanted to sleep with all of them, while they were dating her best friends. They literally stopped being friends with me because she wanted them too…

How unhappy must you be to attack someone else? No one who is happy, attacks others. You just don’t.

When you are truly happy you do go out of way to attack someone, especially someone you don’t even know…You just can’t be bothered…Why wreck a good life?  When I started to realise the power that I had, how sad her life must be…I started to come out of my shell again…What could she honestly do? The people who are always there for me, stayed with me. I was safe. When I started to realise these things, I could even start making jokes at her expense. Which sounds mean, but it was more I was having a conversation with someone on a forum and she just had to tell me how “immature” I was being. So I called her “MissButtSexputdrugsinouralcoholwantstohaveorgiesandhavesexwithmybestfriendsboyfriends…is calling moi immature?”. Pretty much every topic on that forum was her talking about one of those topic. She did not like that. Her response was toxic and she got banned from the forum. The irony being she has not only ended up with the guy that banned her, but they are still together and have a kid!

The result of this was giving me a life back. My Life.

I was able to laugh at her, I was able to laugh at the situation. It was ludicrous. I was finally able to stop it from affecting my life and I was actually able too start moving on from my ex as well. That was part of the problem, she kept bringing it up. I must have taken that selfie of myself to make jealous, except for the whole he couldn’t see it unless they were showing him, thanks to my privacy settings. Constantly being told how happy he is with his new girlfriend etc.

This is what it has helped me overcome in my future life…

It also taught me the biggest lessons in my life. About relationships in any form, family, romantic, friendships. What is appropriate, what isn’t, what I should and shouldn’t apologise for, about who is really there for you. How I don’t want any fake relationships of any kinds in my life. I have also been in a similar situation since and I learnt SO much and how to handle it, with pretty much no drama. That has my life has been pretty much drama free since then.

52 Weeks Grateful Challenge … Week 1

1. Why start this challenge?

I feel like I have a lot to be grateful for, but last year was such a downer and I’ve mentioned that a lot of the run up that was happening in 2016, but the real stuff was going to be happening in 2017 (Trump is now President, Brexit, etc). 2017 seems like a really scary year. Even though I am neither American or British. A lot of these changes are going to be affecting my country, Australia.

I’m mainly starting this Challenge, to constantly remind myself of everything that I have to be grateful for. Which I hope will help during those tough days. I find sometimes writing down and getting out it there, can “ground” the thought. I think it would also be nice to look back during the year and reflect.

As mentioned on my page for this category, I wont be doing this on a particular day either, I’ll be doing it when I feel like I need to do it…So please just keep an eye out for it ~.^

Freestyle Writing Challenge

I was looking back through some old posts and I had completely forgotten about this one! I am so sorry about that, because after completing this, it was a terrific challenge! I did this at 12:30am so I was slightly impressed with myself and what I wrote may I just privately say ~.^

So Musings from a Tangled Mind sent me this challenge quiet a while ago and I did promise to do it (over two months ago now!)

Freestyle Writing Challenge

The Rules:

– Open an MS Word document.

– Set a stop watch or your mobile to 5 minutes or 10 minutes whichever challenge you think you can beat.

– You topic is at the foot of this post BUT DO NOT SCROLL DOWN TO SEE IT UNTIL YOU ARE READY WITH A TIMER.

– Fill the word doc with as many words as you want.

– Once you began writing do not stop even to turn.

– Do not cheat by going back and correcting spellings and grammar with spell check in MS WORD (it is only meant for you to reflect on your own control of sensible thought flow and for you to reflect on your ability to write the right spelling and stick to grammar rules)

– You may or may not pay attention to punctuation and CAPITALS.

– However if you do, it would be best. At the end of your post write down ‘No. of words =_____’ so that we have an idea of how much you can write within the time frame.

– Do not forget to copy paste the entire passage on your blog post with a new Topic for your nominees and copy paste these rules with your nominations (at least 3 bloggers).

I chose TEN minutes. And the word I had to work with was: Golden.  

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Golden like the sun, the first thing that comes into my head is the African sun. Watching my Safari Drives one of the most stunning views that we get while watching the sun rising and the sun falling.

How amazing, no matter which country you are in to just sit silently and watch that little Golden ball drop and then get to watch it again to rise.

The purples and orange colours that surround this stunning event and what always touches me is how it happens every single day. It has to be one of the most stunning events that happens every single day, it’s not just a symbolic sign but the science behind it as well always makes me things and will always moves me. We’re spinning on this planet, every single day, it never stops spinning. It’s why the sun comes up and goes down every day. Once we’re gone and for the million and billions of years that the Earth has been here before we were, it’s always spinning, making the sun come up and down.

We can’t control the new saying should be instead “There are THREE things guaranteed in this life, taxes, death and the sun rising and falling every day”.

Even as I write this, the Safari drive is on in the background and we are viewing the Sun fall down over the savannah and the African desert.

When the sun rise, a new day has begun. When the sun falls the old day is done. It cannot be repeated. Make every single minute count! That day is done and gone.

Words written: 268

The three bloggers I nominate (please feel free to do or refuse, but it’s a great challenge!) are

a) https://cultfit.wordpress.com/

b) http://movingtowardsthelight.com/

c)  https://gabriel360live.wordpress.com/

Your word is: Strength

Puzzles are your minds best friend

So last night I found this link and the group of puzzles really do honestly make your mind think! I know it’s probably really early in the morning for you all, but this will definetly get your mind thinking. Isn’t that what we all want on a Friday morning =D

DO NOT LOOK AT THE ANSWERS ON THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE!

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/brain-workout/201503/7-puzzles-challenge-your-critical-thinking

 

Share Your World!

So I have started a new Blog Challenge! Share Your World! The questions are asked every single Monday, but I will be posting mine on Thursday.

Pleas click the picture below to take you the original Blog post of “Share Your World” blog challenge!

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Share Your World – 2015 Week #14

What type of music relaxes you the most or do you prefer silence?

This is kind of a “little from column A and a little from column B” answer. I have moods where I need the music to distract myself, but I also have the times where I need the silence. I have found a type of music though recently (literally this week) where I can listen to the music at any-time … Look up David Arkenstone, you wont be disappointed!

Show us a two of your favorites photographs?  Explain why they are your favorite.   If you are not a photographer, think of a two favorite scenes in your life and tell us about them.

Ellie3 This is more a of a screenshot of a live safari feed that I watch. If you read my Blog, you will already know how much I love this Safari feed. This one just reminds me of how little baby elephants truly are. How anyone could want to kill such a sweet thing, is beyond me.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA Oh, come on…What’s NOT to love about this photo?lol…It created such fun and happy times.

What is your favorite tradition? (family tradition, church tradition, whatever)

Christmas…I LOVE Christmas and over the years we have changed some and improved others. One of my favourite traditions though is when the adults have our secret santa presents. My Grandfather passed a few years ago and one of his “things” was to wrap presents in newspaper, and since he passed every Christmas the adults wrap their secret Santa presents in newspaper. One of the reasons its my favourite is because we live all over the country, we swap newspapers to wrap the presents in and spend most of the day trying to guess who is whose “Secret Santa”.

If you could go back and talk to yourself at age 18 what advice would you give yourself?  Or if you are younger than 25 what words of wisdom would you like to tell yourself at age 50?

Keep up with the travelling, but work towards becoming a Librarian earlier. If you have to work full time and study at the same time…DO IT!

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

My partner not making me feel guilty about wanting to spend some alone time, because I was stressed out about an assignment due this week. I am looking forward to NOT having to make another public presentation…Ever Again!lol