Life Lessons…The hardest of Lessons

This is a little different post for “Life Lessons of the Libraries” and I feel like it’s one of the hardest lessons to learn and I am learning it again…For the millionth times.

Sometimes I feel like heartbreak in a romantic relationship is more than a majority of the time, inevitable. The breaking of a friendship though can sometimes be if not just as hard, but sometimes harder than the break down of a romantic relationship. Clearly there are different variables.

I seem to be going through this with some friends who I thought I was really close with. They just seem to have cut themselves off from me and any-time that I plan to meet up with them, they keep cancelling. The biggest insult is when they’ll hang out with people I introduced them too!

I think the hardest things about these situations is you never seen them coming. You think you are really close and then suddenly you are completely blind-sided. Which is why I find friendship breakups really hard, because you very rarely see them coming. Especially when you are getting dumped for a group of people who are just horrible. Case example, Girls brother comes up to me (guys have been dumping me to be with this girl) and I feel uncomfortable talking to her brother about it. Except he says “They only like girls who can’t think for themselves”…That was the last time I saw that group. However, it’s kind of personally insulting to me to be dumped for a group like that -.- Where siblings have no respect for each other.

TMI Tag

So I read this post at: https://vrushali21.wordpress.com/2016/01/21/tmi-tag/comment-page-1/#comment-1109 Shared by the very lovely Vrushali21 and I thought “why not” I’m not really sure what and how much you all know, so here’s some more about me =P

What are you wearing?
At the moment I’m wearing my works official uniform. We only have to wear the uniform at the busy times of the year.
Have you ever been in love?
Oh, absolutely.
Have you ever had a terrible break up?
All of my break ups have been fine, a lot of the times we’ve broken up because it was the “right” thing to do. However, the way they all treated me a couple of weeks later. That was the terrible part, I actually said to my last ex it felt like all of my ex’s had all just secretly hated me, that’s how horrible they were. I still can’t understand it.
How tall are you?
I’m 5″2
How much do you weigh?
You should never ask someone that! My weight honestly has been going up and down a bit, especially when I hurt my leg and basically was doing nothing but sitting for a month.
Any tattoos?
Nope, I would really like one though. I know though I would get bored though and getting the tattoo off would be costly and apparently the lasers used to get them off are really painful.
Any piercings?
One on each ear.
OTP?
It’s funny, I like putting couples together from different television shows or from the same show but different characters. For example, Legolas and Arwen, River Song and Loki. I would have to say though at this moment I love Mary and Francis from the television show “Reign”.
Favorite Shows?
As mentioned above my favourite is probably Reign, but the other that I just love is Homicide Hunter, it has to be one of my favourites of all time.
Favorite Bands?
I’m one of those annoying people that can like everything. Just to name a few I like Enya, Nightwish, Marylin Manson, Jennifer Lopez, anything Celtic. I like what I like.
Something you miss?
I miss people using common sense,lol.
Favorite Songs?
I have no favorite songs. I love them all equally. (Ditto)
How old are you?
A lady never tells =P
Zodiac Sign?
Taurus
Quality you look for a partner?
Kindness, I feel like if someone is kind everything else comes along with it: Honesty etc.
Favorite Quote?
To thine ownself, be true … Will Shakespeare
Favorite Actor? 
I guess the ones that I’ve been faithful to over the years are: Orlando Bloom, Matt Smith, Ben Barnes … I seem to have a thing for the “tall, dark and handsome” type.
Favorite Color? 
Red!
Loud or Soft Music?
Depends on my mood.
Where do you go when you’re sad?
I go to my room, or sometimes to the shower.
How long does it take you to shower?
It can honestly depends, sometimes I just need a quick 10 minute shower sometimes I can stay in there for a good hour.
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
I take about 30-45 minutes depending on how good of a sleep I got the night before and if I have my clothes organised from the night before.
Have you ever been in a physical fight?
Does fighting with my little brother count, when we were younger.
Turn ons?
Some who genuinely finds everyone interesting.
Turn offs?
When someone thinks the way a person “should” be.
What is the reason you started your blog?
I actually started it for a school project, where we had to learn about other social media sites.
Fears?
“Official” fears are Octopuses, those things are freaky creepy and are way too smart!
The last thing that made you cry?
Well for some reason I couldn’t stop thinking about death. That happens to me sometimes, it just gets stuck in my head and for the next couple of days I have a hard time getting it out of my head.
Last time you told somebody you love them?
Would have to be my boyfriend … or my dog,lol.
Reason behind your blog domain?
As mentioned before I originally set this Blog up for a school project and WordPress was the top Blogging site mentioned.
Last book you read?
You can find out here: https://lolsyslibrary.wordpress.com/2016/01/18/throwback-monday-2/ ~.^
The book you’re currently reading?
I’m not currently reading anything at the moment, I am looking for something to read. At the moment with my work being in its busy season I get home and I’m exhausted so I’ve been playing simple computer games.
Last show you watched?
Agatha Christies “Poirot” with David Suchet. It’s not one of the movie length, it’s been cut down a bit to make into a movie.
Last person you talked to?
My Grandmother
Relationship between you and the last person you texted?
He’s my boyfriend and he pocket dialled me…Left a lovely voice message.
Favorite food?
Lasagne … Definitely Lasagne.
Place you want to visit?
Disneyland, everytime we talk about where we want to go or if we won the lottery, where would we go? Disneyland every single time.
Last place you were?
(I’m assuming this one is about a holiday place) If you are ever in Adelaide, South Australia. I highly recommend you visiting a little place called Hahndorf (South Australia).
Do you have a crush?
Does my partner count?
Last time you kissed someone?
Would have to be my partner … or possibly my dog,lol
Last time you were insulted? 
It’s hard to actually insult me, I’m so weird and crazy, I know100% that I’m not always considered “normal” to some. I respect those though who can tell me when I’m being crazy and “crazy”.
Favorite flavor of sweet? 
Nacho Cheese Doritos … I just love them, is that even a flavour?
What instrument do you play? 
I used to play the Piano, but I don’t anymore. I’m not sure how easily I could pick it up either.
Favorite piece of jewelry?
I don’t usually wear jewellery that much, when I do it’s usually at least earrings.
Last sport you played?
I don’t really play Sports, the closest I come close to doing a sport is the general walking that I do.
Last song you sang?
Does doing it in my head count? I’d look like a crazy lady on the bus otherwise. I was “singing” ‘Sound of Silence” by Disturbed.
Worst pick up line? 

Have you ever used that line? 

Last time you hung out with somebody?
That would have to be my partner and a couple of my girlfriends.
Who should do this tag next?
You!

 

 

Always here too me…

I promise that I will stop posting the depressing blog posts about break ups soon, I have a slight feeling that I am feeling a little better. I have stopped talking to my ex, cold turkey. He didn’t do anything wrong I just realised that I was not moving on and so far this actually seems to be working. I was just having this random thought and at the moment I’m not really sure that I even know how to talk to my friends and family about it, mainly because I am worried if I let them know how I’m feeling, they will become worried and there’s nothing to worry about. So I guess what I’m saying any advice would be much appreciated! (Am I glad or what my ex can’t see this either!lol)

This is the first break up that I have ever had where I feel truly alone. I feel a huge part of me is missing. It took me a long time to let my guard down with my ex and when I did, I fell pretty darn quickly after that. He became such a huge part of my life in such a big way in a short amount of time and I’m not even sure any-more what he was actually feeling. He made feel the happiest and the safest that I have ever felt before and now I have the hopeless feeling that he may have never cared for me as strongly as I felt for him. I’m tired of asking him if he did care about me, because why would he say no for? He’d be too terrified to tell me anything else,lol.

In all honesty, in thirty years, I have never felt like this after a break up. Sometimes it is extremely distressing and I completely zone out and pay no attention to what is going on around me (I nearly got hit by a car the other day). Has anyone else ever gone through this? Can you give any advice on how to help me through? What are some steps that I could take to get through this.

Cheers!*

*Update* I had this post scheduled and since then I am no longer in contact with my ex in anyway and have no plans of that changing shortly, but I would still appreciate the advice!

 

7 Stages of a Break up….Animal Style!

This weekend most of my Facebook has been filled with people who keep going on how great their partners are or are now getting married and while I’m trying to be all “yay”…I think though I am at the stage of the anger from my break up being finally here (oh and I don’t think that it helped that one of my “friends” decided to ditch me…again…to go interstate to go see Orlando Bloom at a con, who she doesn’t even like and who I actually am in love with. While always also leaving me with a ticket to a show that we were suppose to go to that I actually couldn’t really afford) So my “anger level” at the moment is Nuclear.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/lindseyrobertson/the-7-stages-of-breaking-up-as-illustrated-by-animals#m2xe1n

How do animals just instantly make everything better? I can honestly say that I have done stage 4 once and I will NEVER do it again!