One of the best things about being single again is being able to divulge in our little fantasies without feeling to bad or feeling like one is being disrespectful to their partner. If you press this link you can see the picture that is on my PC desktop as a wallpaper background, it makes me grin before bedtime. Thorin “Will You Join Me” Deviantart Artist:MoonFangs I would put the picture up, but there are VERY strict rules when it comes to this particular picture.
When ever I am going through a particularly rough break up or had a huge crush on someone and they choose someone else, I tend to focus on my fantasy men. Anything that I may have imagined with that particular boyfriend/ex/crush, there image is taken over by one of my “fantasy men”. I find it extremely helpful and I find it helps me move on. I don’t know why, I can’t explain of why thinking of someone I don’t know or some make believe character helps me to move on from a “real” person, but it does. Maybe it’s because I’m not thinking about them 24/7 instead… Or you know…I’m just crazy =P
So this weekend is a big test for me! It’s the first “supportive” thing I will be doing as my new ‘beau’s’ partner. I am nervous for a few various reasons:
- Posisbly will meet some members of his Family
- Will be meeting his friends for the first time.
- Will be in the same room as the friends who I do not like (and they don’t like me) and who I have not seen for a couple of months.
It’s a long story (as they always are) there are so many reason to feel uncomfortable and my mind is screaming “Don’t Go!!! Don’t do it!!!”. No! Super Girlfriend Mode is on and I will be dragging (and a couple of other friends) myself out. I think it’s one of the main things I will miss about being single, if I don’t want to go somewhere…I don’t have too. I could avoid meeting people for the first time for the rest of my life! I don’t owe anyone an explanation as to why I wouldn’t want to go somewhere, I just wouldn’t go.
Hang onto your single life people!!!
Will be meeting his parents (at least)
Will be surrounded by his friends who apparently dislike me (but no one, including them, will tell me why)
All the people who were suppose to be coming with me, have now pulled out.)
If I can get through tonight’s social situations, I can get through anything!
Once again going with my music video theme for this week…This is a song I repeatedly listen too and have for many years. I think that a lot of others can relate to this song and Kate Winslet doesn’t, surprisingly, sound too bad. I think though, if a lot of people knew who this songs relates too for myself, they would be very shocked…Because it is not any of my past boyfriends. Whenever I am having a rough time with a partner, or a potential partner I somehow always stumble over this song.
Uploaded on 19 Feb 2010
Artist – Kate Winslet
Title – What If
Record Company – EMI Records