Invisibility

I find this hard to explain because I consider myself to have a mild form of depression. This isn’t completely out of the realms of fantasy, since most of my Dads side of the family seem to suffer from it. The only thing is mine comes in waves if that makes sense? I’ll be upset for 30 minutes and then I’m okay again, or I use one of my coping mechanisms and I’m fine. Whereas others I know the low will go on for hours and that’s why I keep a lot of what I go through to myself. This is the “platform” that I have used to be honest and say for the first time to say publicly and honestly “I suffer from depression”.

Some of my coping tools are to just listen to a style of music depending on the type of mood I’m in, sometimes all that can through to my mind is to listen to some heavy metal music. Watching a comedy television show, I can only watch comedy through that time. How can I help others if I can’t be honest with them?

In Australia we also have this wonderful company called “Beyond Blue” (http://www.beyondblue.org.au/) If you are ever feeling down please look through this site, or if someone you know suffers from depression please read this site!

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Robin Williams <3

Originally I was going to take a ‘hiatus’ from all types of social networking sites (except for this Sea Eagle webcam that I am now watching in replacement of the little Baby O’s). However I happened to peer over the shoulder over a friends computer while they were reading some news on the computer and saw the extremely sad news =( At first I thought he had died from a heart attack, but now it appears that it looks like a suicide.

I think this is one of the genuine times that I feel really upset about hearing of a “celebrities” death. I absolutely LOVED Robin Williams, he always had me cracking up…or in some cases, really freaking me out and making me cry.

‘Lightning storm of comedy’ Robin Williams dies of apparent suicide” “The Australian 2014”.

Robin Williams just had this amazing ability to take any situations and just make you laugh till your tummy and cheeks hurt and the tears rolling down your face and you have to walk out of the room because you cannot breath any-more…Can’t forget his dramatic pieces of work either! That man had so many facets and was extremely talented. I always thought that there was a bit of sadness, but it was always hard to see between the laughing. There was always just something in the background, but it’s one of things that you notice if you’re watching his stuff over and over again. I think he needed the hyperactivity to keep his mind off of other stuff…That is just my personal opinion though. His drug and alcohol addiction was pretty well known over the years…Still it is shocking.

Beyond Blue (c) 2014

Tow of my favourite comedians together =)

 

Beyond Blue

This week I had a bit of a scare…when I say ‘scare’ I mean it has been a scare about my mortality and I wont know for roughly a year about the outcome. This week has therefore been an extremely traumatic and thoughtful one. It has made me question a lot about what am I doing here, I had a breakdown over seeing a child singing…One of those types of week.

I have always believed that I suffer from a low depression, meaning that I do suffer from it but it doesn’t affect my life as badly as some of my other friends. It does help that I have learnt about my triggers and also have learnt tools to help me cope better. There are a lot of people in my life who suffer depression from extreme (physically debilitating) to the mild type I have.

One of the most well -known industries in Australia are called “Beyond Blue”, they are an industry that help people cope with Depression and Anxiety. They give advice, get you in contact with professional health experts and recommend treatments for people and genders of all ages.

If you are suffering from depression/anxiety or know someone who is, please click the link below:

http://www.beyondblue.org.au/