I wish I had written this earlier today/yesterday. Apparently it was America’s National Best Friend Day. This for all the people, who like me, don’t really have a “best friend”.
One of the things I’ve learnt in the last couple of years is that you don’t need a best friend. I don’t really consider myself too. I would say my mum and my partner are the closet thing to it. What you need though is the very best from your friends =D I know some amazing human beings who have been a better friend to me than anything close to what my ex best friends ever were. Because who wants a “best friend” who makes you feel like you could be better friends with your worst enemy?
Uploaded by: Giorgio Magliano
Published on 12 Oct 2010
I get asked a lot would I be friends with my ex friends if they came and apologised too me. My answer is always going to be a “Oh Hell No”.
It’s not that I haven’t forgiven them, I have. It’s not only because I don’t think they ever would anyways. It’s more that when I think about it. I’ve come to realise that they were never my friends to begin with. That is sad to a girl, who even when I was little. At Christmas time I would make sure that all the decorations (that weren’t baubles) had to have someone else because “Everyone needs a friend” and the sad conclusion that I came too where I realised I’ve never actually had a best friend.
As sad as that it is and too much like a Robin Williams quote. It’s true and I’m fine with that. I just don’t want people in my life, who make me realise that ever again in my life.
I deserve better than that.
I do miss having a best friend, in the “traditional sense”. When my partner saw that I had written that I didn’t have a best friend, he got really upset with me. I think it actually hurt him. I think he knows now what I meant…I hope so! But I think you know what I mean? I can hardly talk to him about any of my dream weddings plans!lol
So having one of those “days” got into a fight with a ‘best friend’ of mine…I should be reminded that if someone doesn’t want to leave a relationship that is more than unhealthy for me you either a)say nothing or b)accept that you’re going to be blasted for wanting to be protective. Guess which one happened to me! (In case you can’t guess, it was option B,lol).
The weird thing that I’ve been perfectly fine, even though I’ve been called “fake”, passively aggressively though. I’m not even sure why that is, these are my BEST friends. There’s one or two who aren’t necessarily taking sides but they’re just letting me know they don’t think the same way the others are. I can take comfort in the fact that I feel strong too, I wont even let my best friends talk shit about me.
I guess when you speak the truth and you are coming from a genuinely honest concerned place, I guess that makes all the difference.