Seldomly the right thing…

The quote for this week isn’t actually from a well known author or a well known character…This is a quote that I thought of a couple of days ago while I was volunteering and it just resonated with my situation this week =)

“Very seldom does the right thing to do, feel like the right thing to do, and is usually the very last thing that you want to do”

Author – Lolsys Library 2014

I hope you dance <3

(I am getting bad at making sure that these get posted on time!) This week I am going with more of a music magical Monday.

I have recently had a bit of a health scare and I wont know for roughly under a year what the outcome of that is going too be. So for the next year I think my mood is going to be very interesting to witness. However this experience has given me a massive mortality wake up call. Like with mortality scares it tends to make your mind think a little more morbidly.

There is a small amount of people in my life who know what’s really going on and by small I do mean less than the number of fingers I have on one hand…As well as you guys now. One of the beautiful things about this wake up call is it’s made me appreciate the real friendships and the real loves that I am lucky enough to have in my life. Especially of those who don’t actually know what’s going on, but are still by my side.

It has made me really stopped trying to impress everyone (which honestly I was getting no where with fast anyway). I am actually eating better now, instead of just going whatever, not that I’m obese or anything, just eating more healthier.

As I mentioned though my mind has gotten a little morbid including thinking about Funerals. At the same time there was only one song that I could think of that I would want to be played (I know, pretty morbid). The song I want though is so beautiful and absolutely reflects a lot of who I am and I could absolutely imagine myself saying this to a friend and I WANT my friends and family to remember this part of who I am ❤ Now there are two versions of this song, my personal favourite is sang by Ronan Keating the other is sang by Lee Ann Womack…I hope you enjoy!

Uploaded on November 30 2009

Music video by Ronan Keating performing I Hope You Dance
2004 Polydor Ltd. (UK)

 

Listen to your Heart…You are all beautiful to me…

I’ve been discouraged lately…I keep seeing these posts saying things along the lines of “If you she’s really pretty and all the guys want her, she’s obviously a keeper” and people mentioning things of “He is so ugly, why would he think I’d date him”. The other thing that shocks me is the amount of people who will like or agree with these statements.

I have never understood thinking like this. When you really love someone, really care about them, looks has literally nothing to do with it. (I told them so as well) My boyfriends have all been completely different, look wise. In fact the “prettiest” of the bunch turned out to be the most cruel, cold hearted and unkind. Funnily enough I thought I saw him a couple of weeks ago but then I thought “Oh he’d never let himself go like that”. That particular ex use to have a go at me for my looks as well.

One thing in life I can guarantee is that looks have literally nothing to do with someone’s heart or their true beliefs. Don’t even think about it. If you are going around posting and saying things about how someone is pretty and all the guy wants her so she must be keeper. You don’t deserve her. I have stopped complaining about being hit on all the time and the main reasons I have stopped looking for someone. I started to realise that a large majority of the guys who would privately say that I’m the most beautiful girl they know and I’m the one for them. Didn’t actually know a single thing about me and when they realised that I was not just a pretty girl. I have a mind, ambitions, beliefs and I will stand by them, they didn’t like me so much any-more.

So now I make sure I take time to get to know someone and I take note if they are listening to what I am saying. 90% of the time…they don’t,lol.

DHT ft. Edmee – Listen To Your Heart
2004
Robbins Entertainment

Day 14 – 21 Single Womans Blogging Challenge!

So here is my third instalment of my Blogging Challenge…I can’t believe that I am already up to the third week! January is nearly already gone…Damn!

15)   Narrate a conversation between you and someone in your life who you never had closure with (a friend, an ex, a family member, etc.) What would you say? What would they say? What outcome would you hope for?

Well there are so many people that I wish that I could do this with question! Especially since this is the year that I’m trying to get the toxic people out of my life. The thing is I don’t want to take them out, I never ever do. I have a Disney type view on the world in these matters. As I say though I am the most idealist realist you’ll ever met. I am always willingly to forgive and have people back in my life, as long as I believe that they are genuine in their apologises. I may need time, but I always want people back in my life…I’ll always make room again. You can forgive some, but you do not need them back in your life.

I wish all the time that I could have my Great Grand-Father back, and there are so many conversations with him I wish that I could have that I wouldn’t know what to start!  About me, friendships, my life, career…He was an extremely inspirational person in my life.

16)   If you planted a time capsule right now of your life to be opened in 20 years, what would be in it?

  • Doctor Who memorabilia and most likely with my fan letter to Matt Smith.
  • Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit memorabilia
  • The group photo of when my family went on our family vacation
  • A picture of my doggies
  • A copy of my Library Studies certificate
  • Probably one of my rockabilly dresses
  • One of my favourite candles
  • A recipe of Lasagne

17)   What are your spiritual beliefs and how do they impact your relationships/relationship status?

I am what is better known as an “Agonistic”. Meaning I don’t necessarily believe in a God, but I believe in other spiritual worlds. I do believe in Guardian spirits/angels, psychics etc. I do however love what the Dali Lama and what the Buddhist stands for. I also do Reiki.

So far with the Reiki/Tarot part of my life, my ex’s haven’t been judgmental of my life. It’s something that I do not force down their throats and so far they have been extremely open minded to it and one of them even asked me to do Reiki on him a few times. So when I am looking for a partner, they don’t have to believe in it themselves, they do have to be respectful that I do it and will continue to do so.

18)   If you could have a conversation with yourself in high school, what would you say? 

To believe more in myself! Take the trip to America it will change your life. Start studying Library Studies and not to wait till later! The right man is going to come along, so don’t worry about it even if it take years and too always remember that family is here for you no matter what.

19)   What is something about you that people would be surprised to learn?

I think a lot of people are deceived by my sunny like nature. I’ve always been of the thought that if you haven’t done anything wrong to me. Why do I think I have the right to be nasty and bitchy just because I woke up like that? I know a LOT of girls who will literally say “I woke up in a bad mood, so I am going to be a bitch all day today”. So a lot of people think I am pretty much a walk over, which is completely not the case at all! I can easily kick people’s butts! Then they’re shocked I can stand up for myself.

20)   Describe your most difficult breakup and what you learned from it

Well in case most people haven’t heard, it was definitely my last break up. Ironically it was the shortest relationship I’ve ever had too because I knew something was off, couldn’t figure out what it was until we broke up,lol.

However, I can say that I have learnt the most from it. No more toxic people, I can’t just put up with stuff anymore. I have been doing a lot more things that I was previously afraid to and I do things because I want too and not give a stuff what others thinks. It has been amazing! I’ve been having a lot more fun than any other time in my life and I am doing things that are proving to be extremely positive!

21)   How would you pitch a reality show about yourself? To what network?

Ahhh…Well I have never done anything like that before. I guess the best kind of show I could pitch si a lady coming towards the end of her 20’s. No kids, no marriage and he quest as she enters her thirties looking for personal fulfilment. How is it to be a single women in her 30’s in this day and age?

No idea about the network, maybe the Lifestyle channel? No idea,lol

Once again if you want to learn more please check out: http://thesinglewoman.net/2013/10/04/the-single-womans-30-day-blogging-challenge/