I’m going to do it!

So this is how this works right, I let you know what I’m want to do…This way I cannot back out!

For YEARS now I have wanted to learn how to start drawing. In my head I am such a visual person and I LOVE to start getting some of my ides onto paper. Instead of getting someone else to draw them for me. As beaitiful as the drawings are, it would save me so much more money if I did it myself,lol

The other thing that did occur to myself over the weekend was this. I LOVE the little creations that Little Fat Dragons, Plush Like Creatures etc 

They make the cutest little creatures, but they are all overseas and a lot of the time not only are the expensive (but totally worth it)…but sometimes I miss the sales because of the time differences. I think they are mostly in the America areas…Why don’t I just start making my own?!

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Yes funny dog meme…I am going to do it! I want and feel like I need to do this! You ever get your feeling, you’re supposed to be doing something? Well I am getting that feeling right now!

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I feel good writing this and getting this out there…So i must be right?!

It’s time to say Goodbye

I had a very Oprah, light-bulb, ah -uh moment over the weekend when I was trying to explain to someone about a past relationship, where it was the room mate who was abusive and bully to me, rather than my partner. However, my partner looked me dead in the face when I finally asked for help after having a shoe flown at my head “Please do something” I kid you not my then partner looked me in the face and said

“You deserve it and you have it coming”

As much as I hate it, and even though I left straight away after that comment, and it’s been years. That comment still stays with me. However, that’s for another post.

I met my “that partner” through mutual friends who were still my friends every after we broke up, but we are pretty much no longer friends. After thinking about it for a while I’ve come to realise that the reason my partners comments have shocked me less and less over the years is because of this group of “friends” It has recently occurred to me why my partner felt that was the best thing he could do. My ex-partner is such a chicken, like he’s definitely a weakling.For him, instead of doing anything, because he “had to live” with this guy, it was just easier to blame me. It’s occurred to me recently the entire group is like that.

I have un-followed all of them on my Facebook and have for nearly the whole year now. I am starting to think of unfriending them in the new year. I have been publicly humiliated because I didn’t want to date someone, I have been told that headbands look stupid on me. Someone told me something disrespectful about their sister and best friend, and yet I wasn’t invited to the party.

I have had my phone yanked out of my hand, checking up on a girlfriend, because that’s being rude and unsociable. Yet, the girl right next to them, was playing on her phone because she’s “bored”, the whole time I was being berated and being put down, she was there, playing on her phone, which is why I initially thought it’d be okay to check up on my girlfriend. That whole situation is an exact representation of my “friendship” with these people. They’ll treat what they think you’re worth. How is that not a form of emotional bullying, borderline psychological abuse?

With it coming up to New Years Eve and with people thinking about who they want to bring in the new year in, who they want to start off the year. Please, REALLY think about it. Think about being your own best friend. Please think about who you really truly believe in your gut who deserves to be with you on a brand new journey.