What do I do now?

I found out something last night and now I am feeling SO guilty. My baby brother (though he’s a whole person taller than I) lives Interstate. He not only decided that he wanted to come over to our state for his birthday (goodness knows why) Then again the other thing I found out might explain it a bit more. I found out as well that he’s been having mini panic attacks…Now I’m starting to worry that it’s because of myself that he’s starting to have them.

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Although I don’t smoke…and I’m not a man

Have I been talking about it too much?

Now my partner is kind of making fun, because both sides of my family have suffered from anxieties. My mums side, mainly the women (as far as I know) around my age have all had issues, BUT, we’ve also “overcome” them. Or at least learned how to cope with them. My Dads side, not so much. They’re all addicts. They’re all still alive though. With numerous health issues, but still here.

I just feel guilty right now. I don’t want to stop from talking about it, but I don’t want to give people anxieties either.

I think that I’m going to buy him a bunch of fruit…Maybe some tea too.

I bought and sent him some fancy tea things with Chamomile.

Share Your World, April Week 4, 2018

Share Your World

Share Your World, April 30, 2018

Do you use paper money? If so is your money organized sequentially according to denomination?

Oh my goodness, I do both of these! I still prefer using paper money, I will use “pay wave” and the like, but I feel REALLY uncomfortable doing it. Where is my information going, is it being stored?….I know…paranoia! I do also organise my money, I have to “notes” section in my wallet. One side will have $5 and $10, the other $20 and $50.

You are comfortable doing nothing? For long stretches of time?

Some might say too much so! Although I guess a lot of time reading. When it gets cooler in Summer and when Spring starts, sometimes I just like to sit outside and enjoy the water. Usually my cat or dog hangs around me and I play with them, but I’m usually just sitting.

What is your greatest strength?

I’d have to say it’s my Heart. I don’t want to sound completely up myself. It’s a little ironic really as well. My great grandparents on my Mum’s side, just dropped, their hearts gave out. My Dad has had a triple bypass. While I say my hearts my greatest strength. I don’t necessarily mean physically. I’m one of those seemingly rare people, who just because I had a bad day or a bad sleep, doesn’t mean I become a raving lunatic. I can still be there for others, no matter what I’m going through. What I have to learn is to make sure people don’t take advantage of that.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. 

I made myself smile this week. For the longest time since I’ve had these anxiety issues, I’ve really struggled getting on buses…Which since I don’t drive, it’s become very costly. I decided by myself, that I am going to reduce the number of taxis and Uber I take. The best present, I decided, to give myself, is to save some money and take another step forward in controlling my anxiety. SO I did it and I’ve already saved myself in this one week over a hundred dollars =D