The Guilt

Don’t you hate it when you know you’ve moved on, or just never cared about someone or something. However you can’t let go of the guilt that you should be more upset? Take my current situation with my ex friends for an example.

I have actually been better and feel better since they’ve been gone. I write what i want to, I do what I want too. Mainly because now I don’t have the pressure of them telling me how boring or how they don’t like what ever it is I’m doing…Which always seemed to be a lot of things!…As if what they do and watch is so spectacular!

Adam Sandler = Craptacular! #notsorryatall

WIMBLEDON IS SO BORING!!! #notsorryatall

I can talk about Lord of the Rings, I can talk about the Hobbit, I can listen to Delta Goodrem. All the meanwhile without them going “Blergh” or “OMG THAT IS SO BORING” Literally every time I said I was watching something they didn’t like…EVERY SINGLE DAMN TIME!!!!

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I have never felt so free in my life before! I swear so much now,lol.

The guilt that I can’t shake though is that I feel like I am supposed to be more sad? I’ve known them pretty much at least longer than half my life. Even though logically and when I’m honest with myself that I am so much better off without them. I have achieved so much without them already in the past 6 months. I can’t shake the guilt that I should have been more upset about it?

The first couple of months I kept waiting and waiting and waiting to fall in a heap and it just never happened.

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Money doesn’t equal happiness

If you haven’t heard or don’t know who James Packer is (I am sure that most of probably have some idea who he is). James Packer is a very rich…VERY…rich businessman and investor. You might know him most recently from his engagement to Mariah Carey.

Recently though he decided to resign his positions because of mental health issues.

I’m sure you’ve all heard about Justin Bieber and Hailey (Hayly?) Baldwin engagement. Only a couple of months after they broke up with their respective partners. Also known as “serial daters” Does anyone REALLY believe in their love? Also #selenaisfreeparty (I think she’s already had that party).

It just went to show me that you can all the money and all the resources at your feet. Neither does money give you happiness or love. I think the kindest thing James Packer has every done for others is too resign, or take leave. It shows to a lot more people that mental health can affect anyone no matter the circumstances. You can everything and still need help. More self love.

A bit too heavy for the morning?

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This is where we’re at?

So lemme get this straight…Trump can do and say things like this

https://www.scarymommy.com/women-read-donald-trump-quotes-in-new-ad/

https://www.indy100.com/article/11-worst-things-donald-trump-women-grab-international-womens-day-7352406

He’s also been charged with how many counts of sexual assault?

Including “hiring” Stormy Daniels to begin with…Somehow when the Republicans call Stormy a “whore”…Who paid for her services again when the new wife and baby were next door? No one made Trump do that. If you don’t want to get caught with a “whore”…Maybe don’t hire one? Just an idea.

But Stormy Daniels can’t allow someone to touch her?

Yeah, that doesn’t sound suspicious at all!

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Don’t Worry be Happy

A couple of weeks ago I had the weirdest day I had had in such a long time. I was going for my L’s Theory test and the first thing that happened was I bumped into someone from high school and we had a chat about my ex friends from high school and that situation. Then I went and did the test and went across the road to the local mall and walked pass this girl that has never liked me and she recently unfriended me on Facebook. (I don’t know when she did it, but we both got tagged in something and that’s when I realised, because I don’t go to her page) Since I don’t have an issue with her, I smiled and she gave me the coldest shoulder (and no smile) I have ever received.

I had to laugh and shake my head…It’s ridiculous!

I’ve always had this feeling that she’s thought that there’s some sort of competition between us…and I just genuinely do not give a…

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I don’t even understand it because all the guys in this group love her. She’s done these horrible things and they still love her, so that’s them, not me. I don’t like how she’s treated people (myself included) but it’s not like they don’t know what she’s done. Maybe it’s because I don’t worship her or something like that? Generally I don’t do that for anyone, not even with celebrity. I’ve never understood that frame of mind.

Anyways, I digress,

I laughed and shook my head because it made me realise something. I don’t have time or the mental space to worry about people’s make believe problems anymore. How privileged she should feel that someone who doesn’t really care about her…Doesn’t care about her, but everyone else still loves her…I would LOVE to have those problems!

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