My Beauty and the Beast review

Now we all know I am probably going to write an extremely positive review of this movie, Beauty and the Beast, because I have been waiting with postivity since the first day I found out it was even coming out. However, you never truly know how a movie is going to affect you…I might have totally hated it…except for the fact that…I TOTALLY FREAKING LOVED IT!!!

It’s a few days later and I am still on this total happy natural high. It is amazing =D I haven’t felt like this for a really long time.

One of the things that I loved about the animation was that Belle seemed like a departure from the usual “damsel in distress-is doing everything for a man” and READS! Also I could relate to her on a more personal level. Everyone telling me all the time I look gorgeous, but at the same time people consistently making fun of me for being so “odd”. In both the animation and the live action film. The song “Belle” which is one of the first songs (I think it is actually the first song) which introduced us to Belle, both the animation and live action, made me cry. I believe that a soundtrack can break or make a movie, as well as the acting and the plot.

What I really loved and appreciated about this movie was that it extended all the good points of the animation.

There is much more diversity, Belle tries to teach a little girl how to read despite the outrage, much more background on characters, which makes you understand them more. I’m sure you’ve heard about Josh Gad, who plays LeFou, Gastons “sidekick” and the gay “controversy” surrounding that character. The problems for all suffering from illiteracy.

Day One

Today is a kind of a new day for me. It terms of my job, I am going to be doing the exact same job, but just in a different location for at least the next month, with more hours and I am feeling just as anxious, as if I was starting a new job. That’s the problem with a new location, I don’t know the layout of the building, even though they have a great map. I still don’t know where everything is. So it’s a little scary, I’m sure that it’ll be fine…Just those “first day” nerves.

International National Day of Happiness

Nothing like a good day of International Happiness, so I am making a list of EVERYTHING that I can think of that makes me happy. I have actually been working on this particular post for a couple of weeks, so that I can cover as much happiness as I can. There is no rhyme or reason to this list, it just is. You might even find a couple that you agree with.

What about you? What are a couple of things that just instantly make you happy?

  • When either my puppy or my partners cat tongue gets stuck outside their mouth, it’s just so cute.
  • When I’m craving something and I don’t know what I’m craving and somehow, very randomly, I eat something and it’s that something that I was craving.
  • The smell of my black candles, I don’t know what it is, but there smell is intoxicating, so I use them very little, as the shops ran out of that particular candle.
  • Cuddling up with any of my plushies.
  • Choosing “random shuffle” on my ipod and getting all the songs in a row that match my mood.
  • The funny air hugs I have with a particular coworker, since she found out with some people I get funny with hugging them. It’s turned into our little joke, we air hug, air chest bump.
  • Those nights/days that you get to yourself, you have nothing to do but veg out.
  • When I make it through an entire drive without panicking too much.
  • I love it when I can watch Twitch, Safari Live and play games at the same time. Usually only happens on a Saturday.
  • Christmas Day spent with my Mums side of the family.
  • The Christmas Eve Barbecue we’ve started having with people we’re close to but don’t get to see on Christmas.
  • Real Husbands of Hollywood, Last Week Tonight with John Oliver and Homicide Hunter. I never ever watch these shows just in the background.
  • All my favourite musicals.
  • Just sitting and doing nothing and NOT feeling guilty about it.
  • Being in a car and just having a normal conversation without feeling any of my odd anxiety issues.
  • When you buy clothes online and it all fits perfectly…Especially pants and shoes!
  • When I have more money in my bank account than I had expected.

My Happy Place…

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Being a 32 year old woman, I have a h#11 of a lot of plush/stuff toys…and sometimes I honestly feel embarrassed by the amount I have. Then I have a bad night or day and they are just there and then I feel bad that I felt embarrassed. They are just one part of my happy place. The things they could say! I’ve never been very good at letting people in, when I’ve had a bad day or am just having a bad moment, they’re just there. I don’t have to explain, I don’t have to say anything, I can just hug them and cry into them.

I hope that everyone has a happy place … What is your happy place? If you feel comfortable to share, please do!

Everybody I’ve come across people with such a different variation of where their happy places are and it’s great. For some, very lucky friends of mine who live near the beach. They are constantly going for walks on the beach and the sunset pictures they post, they make me happy. For some, luckily, it is their workplace. I know that when I’ve been down my coworkers have given me some of the best laughs that I’ve ever had!

Taking a step backward…Step FORWARD!

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Maybe not the best way to set up a Monday, but I felt like it was a point that I wanted to talk about, of something that happened to me over the weekend. I felt like I had taken a huge step back.

*Just warning…If you do suffer from a anxiety and you’re having a bad day, this post may not be for you today. Even though there is a positive message behind it. I don’t want to be responsible for any triggering.*

Friday morning i had the day off of work and with how well I had been on Thursday, I had decided to head out and do some shopping on the Friday morning. Lately I have been ordering pretty much everything online, because I don’t know how I am going to be from one day to the other.

Taking you back to last year, after an traumatic incident, I have developed an, well I think, a really odd form of anxiety. Too break it down, because someone, who will remain nameless at this point, decided that no, they could not pull over (even though we went past a McDonald’s, a gas station AND a public toilet) and let me out to get to a toilet. I spent 20 minutes basically trapped in a car, actually NEEDING to get out. After the person had left me hanging all day while I drunk tea all day and no food. We were supposed to go clothes shopping, but they had to do some things in the morning. Which was fine, but once it got to 3pm, I was starting to get annoyed. I didn’t know if we were eating, was I supposed to eat first. I was actually in the middle of a text to let them not to bother, when they finally showed up. Our clothes stores close at 5pm on the weekend.

So giving that they finally turned up, we basically run out of the door, which was a bad idea. I didn’t go to the toilet before we left and I had been drinking all day, to fill my stomach. I had been filling my bladder instead.Since then whenever I am in a car, or travelling. I get anxious and feel like I need to get to a toilet badly. I have been getting better with help of hypnotherapy.

I was actually getting better, until a couple of weeks ago. I had one bad night, where I don’t even know what happened, but my stomach hurt and I just had to go. Then it feels like it’s gotten worse, with a rare good day here and there, and just this Friday morning I nearly ended up crying in a shopping mall. It was horrible and I hate it.

I felt SO fed up, I’m tired of fighting it because it’s feels so stupid. When I do go, even in the woes of panic, nothing happens…I can’t even begin to tell you how frustrating it is, how tiring it is. I can’t just do things on a whim and even when I plan things, it still doesn’t always work out. I’m alright coming back and forth from work and sometimes travelling to my partners house I do really well.

Then I have mornings like I did Friday…

I try not to be too hard on myself, I’m doing well every well else, just more necessarily when I have a “duty”.

 That’s the whole thing though, I am so tired of it, that I now have a plan. I had stopped doing all the things that had helped when I started to get better, because I swear just that one bad moment has seemingly ruined it all.

  1. So instead of doing it once a week, like I was before. I’m not going to be mediating and listening to my hypnosis tapes, at LEAST every second day. Definitely the night before long trips.
  2. I have to promise to myself to not be so hard on myself.
  3. When I go shopping by myself, if I need to leave, then I need to leave…It’s alright
  4. I have to start walking my dog again, because that was what honestly what started to heal me before. Whether that be a 5 minute walk or a 30 minute walk, I handle what I can handle. That’s what I used to do before. The walks got longer and longer over time.
  5. No coffee before long drives.
  6. Mostly, it’s okay to admit I am not okay, but I will be. I am not going to let this defeat me.
  7. Trying to figure out a way to calm my mind down before I get into a car, especially with those unexpected trips.

I would actually really like any ideas, or any suggestions about any of the above, or if you want to share…Please feel free…No judgement!

Long posts Incoming

I just thought that I would let you all know that I have posts this week, that are really long. Unlike my usual quick, pep and to the point. I did think about spreading them out and scheduling them all over the place…But why not get them out there and over and done with. They are important topics to me, not just random rantings…Well…Kind of…The one later today is definitely important to me. I would love any suggestions on that one, any ideas, or helpful hints.

Can my childhood take it anymore? Thank-you Disney!

I had a pretty bad this week, feeling pretty down, letting things get to me that I am always having to have keep under control, just to survive. Especially when I was doing so well, had one bad time and now I’m feeling fed up and frustrated, which is making me feel like I’ve taken a step backwards.

However something that completely made my weekend and made my brain not able to handle the awesomeness.

Not only did I find out that they are making a live action Lion King…Yes! You heard me right, they are making a live action Lion King…Which I’d assume would be more of a CGI thing, rather than getting actual Lions etc to act. The even better news though:

“Breaking: James Earl Jones and Donald Glover join the cast of the Lion King”