I am over it already

I’ve spent the last couple of days, going through Wedding stuff and the garden. We have a few people coming in to spend a couple of days mid January, and the backyard is a mess! A jungle of weeds, and I am a little annoyed at my partner, he’s had since mid-December to do something. We’re the only house with a bad looking garden, during Summer.

We look like total bogans!





  1. an uncouth or unsophisticated person regarded as being of low social status.”some bogans yelled at us from their cars”

I put up some plain white lights during Christmas, on the three large shrubbery’s that we don’t have to do much too, lol. I love to Garden, honestly. But I can never get right into it, because I work, lol. I told my partner when he bought this house, you can choose the big fancy house, I am not cleaning it, we will share in the cleaning.

I think he’s done it once in nearly three years. He needs to do the garden, show some pride in his own house that he wanted so much. I can’t complain that much, because he is the bread winner, but still.

I will, lol.

I am already over TERFs and wedding planning. I don’t think the TERFS took a day off on Christmas or New years. What a bunch of losers!

I am also starting to completely understand why some people turn into Bridezillas. I’ve only really “gotten into it” this week, and I am over it. I want it to be fun, but everyone is like annoying me, lol. My Dads still telling me who to invite, I have no control over what I want for a dress. We haven’t even spent a cent yet and my partners complaining about money already. I’ve only just written up my list of who I need to invite. Not all I want to even be there.

I am feeling very much like…

On top of which we have a new kitten, we haven’t even had him for a week yet! He is the cutest little sweetest thing, and I miss him while I’m at work. But he is a kitten. He’s only two and bit months, and so far he has chewed through my partners earphones. Although that my partners own fault, I kept telling him that he was chewing on them and he didn’t move them. I don’t know what he thought might happen.

I just wanted to have fun, honestly with the wedding preparation. I am planning on making a lot of the “stuff” myself. I am not feeling very “fun” at the moment. I am almost at the point where I am actually talking to my therapist about talking to people. I’m trying to figure out with them how to best to approach people.

People are literally texting me while I’m at work “h, have you invited these people”. I have written the list, and so far not making any adjustments. I’ve already had to include people I don’t want too inlue of people I want too. My partner only wants one groomsman, which is fine. But everyone’s like “What are YOU going to do Lauren”. What do you mean, what am I going to do? And my partner is not helping with “What if she doesn’t accept it”.


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