It has been roughly…ish a year since I had my massive anxiety/panic attack. I say roughly because it wasn’t really something I was writing about anywhere at the time. I was flat out on my partners couch for three days straight, to scared too move. The tv was on 24/7 because the moment there was no noise, I started to think…what on earth set me off…
The weird thing about my anxiety attack was that it happened in the middle of the night, roughly about 2-3am. Too this day I cannot tell you for the life of me what exactly set it off. I did have a lot going on at the time, but I thought I was fine…So it was all definitely unexpected. I wont go into details about what happened when I woke up, but it’s the closest I have come to feeling like I am going to die. Hence why I wont go into details, too upsetting.
I have achieved a lot in this year! Probably more than any other to be honest. I have a lot planned for next year! Right now, I am just trying to stay on budget and save.
Believe it or not I actually don’t like dwelling on it too much. Mainly because when I start to think about that night, I am taken back to that night. If that makes sense? However, it’s also a double edge sword. As when I talk about it too people, it helps others and it does help me. It gives us all suggestions on what could help.