The Guilt

Don’t you hate it when you know you’ve moved on, or just never cared about someone or something. However you can’t let go of the guilt that you should be more upset? Take my current situation with my ex friends for an example.

I have actually been better and feel better since they’ve been gone. I write what i want to, I do what I want too. Mainly because now I don’t have the pressure of them telling me how boring or how they don’t like what ever it is I’m doing…Which always seemed to be a lot of things!…As if what they do and watch is so spectacular!

Adam Sandler = Craptacular! #notsorryatall

WIMBLEDON IS SO BORING!!! #notsorryatall

I can talk about Lord of the Rings, I can talk about the Hobbit, I can listen to Delta Goodrem. All the meanwhile without them going “Blergh” or “OMG THAT IS SO BORING” Literally every time I said I was watching something they didn’t like…EVERY SINGLE DAMN TIME!!!!

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I have never felt so free in my life before! I swear so much now,lol.

The guilt that I can’t shake though is that I feel like I am supposed to be more sad? I’ve known them pretty much at least longer than half my life. Even though logically and when I’m honest with myself that I am so much better off without them. I have achieved so much without them already in the past 6 months. I can’t shake the guilt that I should have been more upset about it?

The first couple of months I kept waiting and waiting and waiting to fall in a heap and it just never happened.

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One thought on “The Guilt

  1. You have absolutely no reason to feel guilty! You are and SHOULD be free to be yourself. You are not everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s OKAY! Find and cling to those who drink you whole and refill your cup! I LOVE Lord of The Rings, I’m a HUGE nerd…people that find it boring are just not smart enough to understand it! Lol! I felt guilty too, at first, when I lost contact with old friends, but the more I discover myself, I find that I have no need to feel sad…I’ve moved on, I’ve grown up, and they haven’t…they don’t fit into my life anymore, and I don’t even think about them very often anymore! You will get to that point to! Take care of yourself, love yourself, realize that you are worthy to have friends in your life who accept you as you are! Forget about those who don’t, they weren’t meant to be in your life anyway!! 🙂 I’m glad we’ve connected! I think you’re awesome!!


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