I actually had this thought on the Monday, but out of respect for the most recent mass shootings…I decided to change the day.
Lately, for myself, everything has been happening at the exact right time…So I’m going to start going with this. The first thing that happened was my bag zipper. It’d been working on and off and since it’s been getting closer to Winter, I need my bag to zip close. I asked my Mum for a specific bag for my birthday. No joke, the day before my birthday the zip just stopped working altogether.
Now my phone has been not working either. It just randomly wont turn on and I usually have to put it back on the charger, and then it turns back on. Today (well the Monday) I get a text from my Mum that morning, saying that we had received my new phone…My old phone stopped working and I had to leave it on the charger. It took a while for it too turn back on. I thought for sure that the phone was not going to turn back on.
Then I decided I was going to “chicken out” aka I psyched myself out of catching a bus in the morning to work rather than a taxi. There was really no excuse. My main anxiety has been with travelling, so getting back on buses has been a challenge. I came up with every single excuse under the sun on a perfectly good day to do it. (I do catch it in the afternoon/evening). The taxi ended up being really late, and then every major road we came too, people sped up to overtake us, and the just plain stopped when they went to merge! Three times, three different people, on three major corners…Three times!
Even my post from Self was posted on the Monday after I went to a Body, Mind and Physic fair where I felt completely re-centered, but I had scheduled it days before I even went or remember I was supposed to be going to the Fair.
So I’ve decided to keep going with this feeling: I AM looking into a free website, candle AND label making things. I’m doing it, I AM looking into it.
It feels like it’s coming together.